Making Amends After Isolation
How do I apologize to people for isolating for months after a BPD psychosis episode? I broke from reality and spiraled hard. I stopped talking to everyone because I didn't know how anymore. I'm afraid one person in particular will probably be really hurt and maybe feel betrayed. We shared a traumatic experience together which was part of what triggered my episode. But I was supposed to be there for them. I feel so guilty. I know I need to just tell what happened with me and accept that they may not be able to forgive me.
You are right, you can only share and apologize and accept that they will respond however they respond. I have also lost essentially any friend I’ve had due to my struggles with BPD, and it’s traumatic and filled with grief. The tables turned and I had to cut out someone who also had some sort of psychotic issues. It’s sucks but people can only handle what they can handle. At least we have a space like this where we can share and connect with eachother
I'm very sorry for your losses and that you had to go through those things. I know when I withdraw it is hurtful to others but I try my very best to keep everything inside so that I don't hurt them more with my distorted thoughts. I wish you healing