I think I have BPD
I have a history of friendships with toxic people that caused a lot of emotional damage. Now, I really struggle with having regular, healthy relationships. I get way too attached and possessive way too fast. I'm totally spaced out a lot of the time, and feel almost as if I'm watching my body from above. I spend all of my time wanting attention from my friends. I feel kind of like I'm being manipulative. I can be spending time with my friends and feeling happy, but as soon as I leave I feel completely numb and empty. Does that sound like BPD? How do people cope?
@aadalet hi thanks for reaching out ❤️ people with bpd do struggle with relationships. It is an up and down rollercoaster. There is indeed very high emotions and one can often "feel" they are being manipulative. However it's always best to ask yourself is this the reality ? Am I truly being manipulating ? If yes how can I work on this ? Here is a article about bpd and friendships. I also want to encourage you to seek professional help with this and also use DBT (Dialectical behavior therapy ) it really help me alot and pretty much saved my life ! I always tell everyone about it ❤️ I hope that helps. Also don't be too hard on yourself about the poor relationships and friendships. We all struggle with this so you are not alone in it ❤️