I made my friend feel awful because of my bpd making me blind :(
hi.. i want to know if i can mend what i did to a friend..
i was having a panic attack and meltdown because i felt abandoned . and for hours i was being awful. i didnt make any sense to them but all i did was say how awful i feel and the whole time they gave really short replies . i read those and felt like they didn't care. so my emotions got worse and worse.
then i said how i need to feel compassion and turns out the whole time that was how they show it, but me, being in a blind depressive spiral i couldnt see and now i made them feel like they aren't good enough. i feel awful. i cant stop crying because i dont know how ill ever make this up.
they said they need a few hours alone. i wish this never happened and i guess i am posting because i want to know how to make things better ? sorry & thank you ♥
@Ammimi best way is to say sorry & give them the sapce they need, I get it will be hard but you have to explain to them that in your heighted state you werent really seeing thing to clearly because you were over whelmed.
@Ammimi hello thank you so much for sharing. You are brave to share 💓 I'll like to suggest that you educate them on BPD and try and explain to them the fears you faced. Our emotions and fears do get the better of us sometimes. But we can take some control. I encourage you to try wise man skill. Which is part of DBT. It may help your emotions and your fears. Please don't be sorry for sharing here. We are here for you 💓💪 stay strong.
@Ammimi
Hey hun 
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seriously, I don't even think you "misbehaved" all that much in this. Cause how can you know someone actually means to be compassionate when in fact all they do is give real short replies. 
That's a misunderstanding for sure... but an understandable one. Cause unless your friend TELLS YOU that this is "their way of being there for you", it's not very obvious at all. So... in fact, your friend did their share in creating that misunderstanding just as well.
So to be honest I don't quite get why your friend is acting that "pouty" now. Cause it was pretty easy to not get their behavior right and to assume they wouldn't really care instead.
So to me it feels like you both got each other wrong. But it's definitely NOT like you overreact and screwed it, while your friend did everything right. More like the both of you did their part in this equally. 
So don't beat yourself up too much over it. To me it looks more like YOUR FRIEND is the one who's actually overreacting quite a bit right now 
. Cause their behavior was confusing for real. So it was easy for you to get on the wrong track like this.
Just my two cents though. Might be nonsense or might not be helping, but at least I wanted to let you know. 
