Could I have BPD?
I don't know whether I just have bad depression or if this is BPD. I sh struggle with Eds and suicidak ideation. The only the I don't connect with on the list of symptoms is impulsivity - I'm so controlled that my life is hell. Is this simply depression? I really appreciate any help.
When you have thoughts of suicide, struggle to eat normally and to stay in control, and you harm yourself, it can all feel so complicated, so bad, and so hard to make sense of that it seems like you might have a serious mental illness like maybe BPD. Simple depression doesn't seem like it could be the explanation.
Diagnosing yourself from lists of symptoms doesn't really work, though. This is why others have replied suggesting you need an assessment by a professional. An experienced professional will be able to find out what's really going on and come up with a plan so you can recover.
I hope that talking to listeners here has also helped you to make sense of things. I see you're a listener yourself, helping others, so it's only right that you should be able to seek help for yourself here at 7 Cups. If you'd like to chat with me about all this, feel free to send me a message.
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