BPD and Insomnia
Hello,
I have Borderline personality disorder and I struggle with insomnia because I feel too lonely to sleep. I'm also pretty moody which doesn't help it in the mornings.
My friends are nice enough to me and I'm doing okay but I really miss being in a relationship. I know I need to take time to heal and love myself before I get to be in love again but I feel impatient and lonely all the same.
I write letters to my future soul mate and I know I still need to improve myself before even trying to date again... But regardless of what I do, I'm lonely and it won't ease at all.
Hi there @PoisonCupcakes. How are you feeling? I am really sorry your post went unanswered for such a long time. This section of the forum has been going through some changes lately and we hope to have it running again.
I think it is very important and great that you are able to recognise that we need to love ourselves before being able to love anyone else. I find your idea of writing letter to your future soulmate very sweet, and I wondered if you would consider writing love letters to yourself too...
@admaiorasemper Hi hi, I don't know... I'm better than I was when I wrote that. Thank you so much for answering it now, I appreciate this forum a lot.
I write love letters to myself too, yes, I think it's important to do gestures of self love in that way since that's a great idea! Also, cuddling with my cat helps too.
Anyway, you're a very kind person. How're you? Sending you positive energy back! ❤❤
@PoisonCupcakes thank you so much for your kind words and energy 
I am doing kind of ok I guess.
I'm sorry you feel this way. I think, it is great that you write letter as it helps to lash your emotions out. As for insomnia, did your doctor prescribe sleeping pill to you? I'm asking as I also can't sleep at night. Frankly speaking, I don't want to take any medication. I read the description of the slepping pills on [removed spam]and decided to try something else first. I've already started doing sports, canged my daily routine and try spending more time on a fresh air. I should say, it helps, not as well as I want, but I can see the result.
@Gregory234 I haven't been prescribed any medication and I prefer to try to improve things without pills too. Totally see where you're coming from!
I'm glad you're improving in that way because excerse is great overall! Sometimes having a lot of school work and exercising helps me too, although if anyone on the thread is familiar with other solutions and additional input for what works for them I'm interested.
@PoisonCupcakes
Have to tried with mindfulness or guided relaxing meditations? I personally find them useful :)