Alone in my mind. (TW)
I'm really confused and lost. I don't have the access to a professional therapist becuase my mom doesn't believe that I have mential illnesses and she refuses to take me to a doctar. So I turned to the Internet and did a lot of � research. And I can relate to the symptoms of BPD so much. I know very well that I can be wrong and self diagnosis can't really give me the answers but that's all I have. I'm suicidal, I self-harm, I have intense fear of abandonment as well as paranoia, I have extreme emotion swings, chronic feelings of emptiness, I get paranoird about the smallest details in relationships, and I experience explosive anger when I'm upset. I'm also scared that I'm just trying to validate my feelings and sometimes I tell myself that I'm just trying to find excuses and labels and that there are people who actually struggle with this. I'm 13 and I really don't have anyone to confide in. Please provide advice!
[Edited by @QuietMagic 11/20/21 to add TW]
@Oxymoron6demon. Talk to your counselor at school even if you have to do it on line. Or if you have a friend whose parents you trust talk to them. If you have a church consider talking to the minister. I'm sorry your mom dosnt understand. Maybe you could help educate her by sharing the info you got. Keep trying. You deserve to get help when you need it. And if you haven't, join the teen side of Cups. They will have some ideas too.
@Oxymoron6demon I'm sorry your going trough this all, we are here for you *hugs*
Also, sorry for the grammer mistakes. I was (and always is) in a rush to finish writing this post becuase my parents don't know about 7 cups and I have to hide it from them.