ANXIETY ☹

I can't let these intrusive thoughts go and it's stupid because I fully know and aware I'd never do them, it's the fact that I'm thinking them that makes me feel so guilty and horrible. I'm terrified they won't ever go away. They're about my boyfriend whom I love deeply. I've never had ANY about him prior and I've had them before but I'm afraid I may never recover this time. I'm so scared. :( what if they truly last forever? What if it gets worse and I can't be around him for fear of thinking these things. I was just fine. I don't understand. I can't let go I keep obsessing, and obsessing and obsessing more about them and I just want this nightmare to stop. I was just SO FINE. Am I ruined forever?