Rome, Ni and Mustard’s Space 💙
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@darkerplaces
rome buddy :0 this is just a little space where i can check on you and mustard the super spider-hammie 🐹 hehe. 💜 (that’s her new nickname now 😛)
(me also appreciate for always being so caring and awesome as always 🌈 and always somehow finding ways to cheer me up 🥺💙 thank you. it means a lot that you care 💜 me hopes you know i’m always here for you too! 🌈)
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Hey just wana let u no im leavin cups n stuff thx for chatting n evrything take care of urself n stay safe Ni bye
@DarkerPlaces
rome?
rome
rome
no no no no no no no what happened rome buddy? rome buddy what’s wrong what happened
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don’t go….
i’ve been missing you friend :( i been in and out of cups but im here now but we haven’t been keeping in touch much so idk what’s going on. im so sorry if something happened on here…. im sitting here hoping your just taking a break. i really just hope your just taking a break and you’ll be back… one day. i already i miss you so much and im gonna miss you more :( friend idk what’s going on but… you told me to take care of myself, i just hope you’ll take care of you too.
ni friend loves rome buddy so much okie? friend way but still 💜
idk if your even going to read this ever im just hoping…
Im in a realy bad place mentally just now n latley i feel like cups isnt helpin maybe even makin it worse sometimes n im so tired of acting fine when im not 🙁 i cant even support ppl anymore
@DarkerPlaces
im sorry friend :( but yeah i figured you not been doing so ok 😔 im sorry it’s been hard. i know what you mean by cups making it worse sometimes and not really helping :( sometimes things can get tense here and dramatic… in rooms, and just… life on here is like another life in itself. it can be stressful sometimes 💜 do you think a break would help? :( or maybe you could try to spend less time on here but not completely leave? 💜 idk 😔 i shouldn’t be trying to make you stay or anything when this place isn’t helping you much in the first place… please just try to take care of you okay? rome buddy needs to do what’s best for his wellbeing (i know it can be hard to do that though)
friend im so sorry you’ve been feeling the need to pretend to be okay when your not. especially on here… it can be so exhausting. i’m so sorry your going through that and you’ve been going through that 😔 ik it can be so painful and tiring to pretend all the time, honestly we just need the space to be not okie and just… feel what we’re feeling and be heard and loved amid it all. amid the ok and the not ok. but when we don’t get that space and we feel the need to pretend instead, it just hurts :(
…you don’t have to support people 💜 i know oftentimes on here we feel like we have to give back but the truth is, it’s ok to just try to receive support too. sometimes it’s hard to give support back because… we may be too exhausted, or we may not be in the right headspace to offer support. too much may be going on in our own worlds so sometimes it’s hard to support others… and hey, that’s okay. we're all struggling and we do try to help each other and support each other, but there’s only so much we can do… it’s a site after all, it’s not real-life. your not exactly obligated to support other people 💜 friend do you think you might be - idk - burnt out? :( that could be a reason for some things 😞 i know one thing, pretending to be okay when your not can be super draining and exhausting and could lead to being burnt out :(
*sending hugs if okay* i’m here if you need me ok? 💜 just a tag away, ik i can’t help much but i can listen friend, you mean lots to me and i still care about you always 💜
Hugs thx idk what will help 🙁 im just burnt out always acting like im fine n i feel like i keep bein there for ppl in groups but when i need support nobody listens in the groups n idk 🤷🏼♂️ why should i b there for evry1 else when theres only a few ppl that support me bk 😕😕 the groups aint same i only have a few friends left n evry1 else is a newbie thats just taken over tcr 🤷🏼♂️ n aint like iv got lots friends irl ether
@DarkerPlaces
*big hugs* 💜 you don’t have to thank me for anything rome buddy :') tbh it makes sense you'd feel burnt out if that kept happening. 😔 i’m so sorry it’s been like that in rooms :( honestly some other cups friends told me that rooms have just been different lately too and that a lot of newbies have taken over the rooms, they hardly know anyone anymore. :( i don’t visit rooms often but every time i hop in i do see a lot of newbies and people idk lol it’s rarer now to see someone i do know. :') i think i understand what you mean by that 💜
but the fact that when you try to get support and nobody listens, but you listen to everyone… 😔 that’s just messed up :( i’m v sorry that happens friend and has happened. you deserve better :( and im not just saying that 😔 it’s not v kind if your listening to people and they don’t give you a chance to be heard too. i think so many people forget that… we are all human beings and we have our own struggles and we can’t always support other people. we have our own worlds, our own lives, our own problems too. and we all deserve to be and feel heard and understood :( it feels like so many people forget that we are dealing with our own problems too and sometimes we want to be heard too. 💜
i’m glad you have a few friends that give back, at least :( but still… i can’t imagine friend it must hurt v much when people ignore and when people don’t listen 😞 a friend of mine here said that nowadays it’s like some newbies won’t let the older members/members that have been here for a long time seek support in sr :( tbh over these past several months i’ve seen… and not just me… we’ve seen the gcs slowly get crazier and weirder and meaner… and just not as welcoming and kind :/ it really sucks :(
what about taking a break from the rooms? idk this is just my personal opinion but… this is one reason i just like forums better. forums have their own problems of course like censorship and crap but i think people are less likely to get ignored here and there’s a little more freedom especially in diary spaces… idk 💜 what do you think? 💜
keeping you in my thoughts rome buddy 💜
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@DarkerPlaces
thank you for the pictures friend 🩵 how’s she doing? 🩵 and how are you rome buddy? 🩵
Shes doing great 🐹 im fine i guess hru?
@DarkerPlaces
that's good friend 🩵 i’m glad she’s doing okay.
aww.. bad fine or good fine? *no pressure* 🩵 idk how i am, okay i guess. Ni friend is preparing for some exams i have soon :(
GL with exams i hope they go well ni
@DarkerPlaces
thanks friend 🩵 i hope they do too i’m super nervous though lol
ur real smart i think ul do better than u think
@DarkerPlaces
no lol i’m not smart :') but ill try my best
Ni im so so sorry to be saying this but my little mustard passed today im so upset idk what happened im so sorry
@DarkerPlaces
Rome…buddy….? mustard…? No. No
no no no no no no no
no.
Idk what to say, I’m so so sorry. I feel sad but friend i can’t imagine how you must be feeling. :( *Offers giant hugs* 💜💜💜💜💜
🥺….. 😞😞😞😞😔😔
Im soz idk what to say ether
@DarkerPlaces
hey no 💜 it’s ok. it’s ok not to know what to say right now rome buddy :') i still don’t know what to say… and don’t know what to think… really. I’m sorry. I know you must be dealing with so many crazy thoughts and emotions right now :( and on top of that, daily life and school. I can’t imagine what it must be like. I’m so sorry friend….
it's ok to take your time, ok? 💜 *sits with you*
Hugs
@DarkerPlaces
Big big big hugs 💜💜💜 Rome are you at school now? Or did your foster carers let you stay home? 💜
No im at home im just to upset to do anything tbh cant wven clean her cage out its still all same as before
@DarkerPlaces
i’m glad your at home, rome. honestly. 💜 i think the last thing you need right now… :') is the *** that those girls at school bring :( 😔
*hugs* it’s okay. i think because this is on a new page in this forum you might not have seen my other reply i left but like i said there, it’s ok to take your time. 💜 just… with everything. grieving isn’t easy… it’s hard. it’s painful… it takes time. and we have time 💜 it’s okay to feel your feelings and emotions, whether that’s sadness or feeling like it’s unfair, or anger, or something else. Rome please please try to be patient and gentle with yourself okie? :') I wish i could somehow jump out from this screen and be there and give you a real big hug. 💜💜
Ppl think its just a hamster but she wasnt just a hamster she was amazin n lot ppl dont understand it n idk 🤷🏼♂️ feels realy *** tbh
@DarkerPlaces
Rome… yk what…? Your right friend. 💜 your absolutely right. She wasn’t just a hamster…… :') she was indeed special, and amazing, and adorable. animals have personalities. they bring love and joy and we create memories with them. they become friends. they become family 💜 family isn’t always by blood. in my opinion, family is rarely blood. Rome - to me, you became a friend. and eventually you became like family. 💜 and Mustard became your friend, and became your family.
oftentimes… i feel like animals are better than people, in some ways. They don’t judge. they aren’t mean. I wish people would understand buddy :( i know what you mean. it is absolute *** and *** up that people say she was just a hamster. that people don’t realise the connections we can have with our pets, the way they become our family. And we love them so much…. and they just become a part of our lives, a piece of us. when we lose them… it’s so hard to lose them. It’s *** hard rome, it’s *** hard and when people invalidate us on top of that, it hurts and doesn’t make things any easier.
she wasn’t just a hamster rome :') i could tell that she meant so much to you and even though she wasn’t my pet, she was yours, because of you she meant something to me too 💜 So no, she wasn’t just a hamster. she was a pet, a friend, a loved one, a family. she was special.
Those people who don’t understand and don’t want to understand, those people who say “she was just a hamster.” they’re wrong :( and just ignorant. they just need to have a little more empathy. 😔
I’m sorry for taking so long to reply friend, and Idk how this got so long. 💜 I just want you to know i care about you and i loved and still love mustard too 💜💜 I can’t make the world sunshine and rainbows but i can try and sit with you through the rain. I’m here if you ever need me 💜
Thx it means a lot ik u loved mustard to i miss her so much n idek why she died 🤷🏼♂️ we burryed her in the garden today in a food container n wrapped her up in a cloth n stuff n put her in food container n burryed her n put a rock over the place
@DarkerPlaces
:( Do you think you could ask the vet or something - about what might have happened…? :(
hey rome buddy 💜 i hope this isn’t annoying or anything but if it is feel free to ignore it okie? 💜 and i won’t think anything of that. 💜 but i just wanted to check in and ask you how your feeling/doing today 💜💜 *sending comfy hugs if okay*
Hugs thx idk just feel empty realy 🤷🏼♂️ thx for checkin on me tho ni hugs
@DarkerPlaces
hey friend 💜 i’m sorry for the late reply, i fell asleep after school. ni friend been having extra sleep issues lately so i was just trying to catch up on my sleep lol 💜
*big hugs for rome buddy* please be gentle with yourself buddy 💜💜
i know sometimes we may feel like we don’t want to talk about it and that’s ok, but if there’s anything i can do, whether that’s listening or just being there feel free to let me know okiee… 🥺
