I’m sorry that sounds super awkward. And it’s sad that your friend is leaving. But it’s good for him that he’s doing what he wants.
yeah we’re hanging out tomorrow. so that’s good. i just can’t believe after 13 years he’s going away for 2 years and even though we haven’t properly talked since like 2 years ago i’m going to miss him a lot he was like a brother to me. it was funny because people always thought we’d be like endgame but he’s just chase. he’s like that goofy brother you have that actually makes you want to cringe at his jokes. i just sometimes wish i wouldn’t have distanced myself away from him just because of those two guys i saw today. because of them i just stopped talking to all of them and also because a lot of the people were fake but also because them. and it sucks. i wish i could’ve been better all the time.
but i can’t and it’s just sad that he’s leaving in like a week and it feels like i barely know him now. and seeing my ex and that other guy i just like. my heart stopped. like actually having to see my ex not from afar but like literally right there was. awful. it brought back too much that i thought i could move on but i just always seem to go back and it’s so freaking annoying. buttt i know. the past is the past and i just gotta move on. just really sucky lol. anyway whatd you do today
@free2118 Well moving on isn’t just forgetting or avoiding. It’s coming to terms with it and accepting what happened. I’m sorry but I don’t know how to do that. But I’m here to help of you need anything.
@free2118 Hey it’s ok. Maybe you didn’t do everything that you wanted but it’s fine. It’s not all on you so don’t be too hard on yourself. And you said you are gonna hang out tomorrow right? That’s good. You guys can talk about whatever and if you feel like you should you can tell him anything. He sounds like a really cool guy. Hopefully everything works out for him
yea he’s awesome. he deserves absolutely everything and more. idk i just wish i was there for him more like he was for me before. but hopefully i can be now.
@free2118 Yes you can. You can try to be like him in that regard. Gook luck to him 🍀
thanks!! yeah(:
@free2118 But my day was super boring. I just went to work and the gym and that’s about it.
hey but that’s good. that is something!
and im proud of you
@free2118 Thank you that makes me happy
@free2118 yeah I guess so. I just wanna do more. So every day isn’t the same
well maybe you can now that summer school is done! i’m not sure what but there is definitely stuff to do out and about or whatever you do. yk that reminds me. remember when we started talking you were playing the guitar. how is that going
@free2118 Ugh I’m didn’t want you to ask about that lol. It lasted about a well. I didn’t know where to start and what to learn. So I completely gave up. I’m so horrible at sticking to things
whatttt nooo you should’ve told me it’s ok. i also stopped and i wanna try and do it again but i’m also just not good at starting stuff.
@free2118 But you knew how to play right? At least you learned. I gave up before I even started
i know some chords i don’t know all. hey we should try learning at least one thing a week together
I should at least try to learn
you can do it!! you’ll be in a famous band remember??
@free2118 Oh yeah I forgot about that I will obviously I just gotta learn first. Then I’ll be instantly successful
YEAHHHH exactly.
@free2118 No way that doesn’t sound cringey at all I think it’s really cool. If you think it’s dumb we don’t have to but I think it would be really nice. And having someone to keep me accountable would help a ton
yes. we can keep each other accountable and it’ll be super fun. guitar buddies! 🎸 👼🕺🎸
@free2118 Hahahaha yes we’re gonna be so great!!!
@Hilltop9394 How should we start?
hmmm what do you want to do this week? learn chords or like a song or notes?
@Hilltop9394 before it strikes 30 though just in case. i hope you have a goodnight and cool dreams and also have a really cool awesome day tomorrow(: i’m always super proud of you! byeeee (:
@free2118 Thank you you too. I hope tomorrow is good and you get to talk with your friend for a while. Have a good night and sleep well. And make sure to look at sky tomorrow. Byeee (:
@Hilltop9394 hey! you ok to talk?
@free2118 Hi I’m so sorry I was driving home and thought I’d be back sooner
it’s ok! can you talk or should we talk tomorrow
@free2118 I can talk tonight. How was your day?
ok cool. it was pretty good how was yours?
@free2118 Yay I’m happy it was good. Mine wasn’t that good. I felt super bummed out all day for no reason
oh i’m sorry. do you wanna talk about it or talk about something else?
@free2118 Nothing really happened I just felt upset that’s all. Nothing specific happened
oh ok. well i’m sorry you felt down all day.
i sketched stuff recently wanna see?
@free2118Yes I would really like too
to* yes ok ok gimme two seconds
It’s ok. Hopefully tomorrow will be better
yes! it’ll be good(:
@free2118 Woah they all look so cool! I really liked the last one in marker. It looks so cartoony but real at the same time.
hahah the cars? ugh i’m trying to get better at drawing cars and it’s so harddddd i’m dying haha
@free2118 I think they look really good. And I like the characters you made too. But just keep at it! You’ll get better in no time!
haha thanks so much(: anything cool you did today? like work or something?
@free2118 I went to the gym. That was ok. But I saw someone I know and it was sooooo embarrassing. He was talking and I was so awkward and ughhhh it was so horrible
but you went!! i’m super proud of you. and ugh it’s not as bad as me when i go to the gym. i literally pretend i don’t recognize them it’s so so bad.
@free2118 That happened to me too. I saw one of my brothers old friend’s. We locked eyes and I had to give him that awkward nod
@Hilltop9394 But every time I do see someone I know I try to avoid them
I HIDE. i genuinely go hide or just say i’m done and leave lol it’s so bad 😀👍
@free2118 It’s ok. I get it though. At least for me I always feel so self conscious at the gym and even worse when I see people I know. But it’s ok. It’s good to go and truthfully nobody cares about anyone else when working out
i know i need to learn that because i’m exactly the same way. i need to learn to be better at that because in college i have to go workout or else imma be outta shape and that’s not goooood.
@free2118 It will be ok you’ll learn and there won’t be anyone you know so that will probably make it easier.
very true! it’ll be so fun! OH also did i tell you when i can move in??
I guess so. But I HATE planet fitness. They only got 5 smith machines and they’re always being used
what’s a smith machine?! i feel like i don’t know enough about the gym this is embarrassing
@free2118 It’s the ones for squat and bench. The barbells that are stuck to the machine
ohhhh that’s what it’s called. ok mr. gym bro. you know more than me. you’re here like super strong and ripped then
@free2118 hahaha no I’m like the most lost person ever. Especially when I have to talk to people I’m completely a mess
bro you know a smiths machine. i don’t. so you’re better than me!!
You seemed upset by it. I just don’t want you to be upset
no no. i’m super proud of you!!
@free2118 ok but I’m sorry if I made you mad or anything
@Hilltop9394 How is work so far?
pretty good. i start the medical assisting job in two weeks. but for now the kids are ok haha. they’re chilling. and the hostess job i’m quitting lol. cos i can’t do three jobs i would probably die ngl
@free2118 You three is a lot. But gook luck in two weeks!
thank you!! i’m so excited but nervous haha.
i’m not mad i promise. i’m the opposite i’m super happy
@free2118 ok that’s good
@Hilltop9394 how’s work been for you?
@free2118 It’s been ok. I wanna get a second job though just so I can have some more money
@Hilltop9394 I think McDonalds pays like 14 so I’m gonna try there
ooh do it!! i bet you will get the job and then we’ll celebrate!
@free2118 Yes and then I wanna save for a car.
let’s goooo i’m so excited!!
@free2118 Yess I will and if I end up buying it it’s gonna be the road trip car if you come over here
OMG YESSSSSS. IM SO EXCITED!!! ok so do i have a small say on the car hmmmm. i’ll research and everything i literally will.
@free2118 You have a ton of say. If i find like 3 I like then we are gonna have a very important discussion on which one I should buy. Because I don’t know much about cars and I wanna hear your input
We are gonna find the coolest car ever. And it’s gonna be absolutely amazing
omg i’m so excited!!! and im not even there but like yes. YOU are going to find the coolest car ever! i’m just here as the cheerleader.
@free2118 Ahahaha and you’re my chief car picker advisor person. Hopefully I can get one of those cool boxy 80s cars
i’m so honored to be named chief car picker advisor person.
@free2118 Hahaha I’m happy you’re manifesting. It’s gonna work so well!!!! We are gonna find the best car ever.
this is incorrect spelling butttt. it’ll be the BESTEST car ever. you gotta give it a name or something too. when we pick out the car
@free2118 I was thinking about that when I passed it today and I decided that you’re gonna name it.
@Hilltop9394 I really wanna go but I got work right after school tomorrow. 😔 So I’ll have to go Wednesday. And hopefully they sell cars and let me look
