@SeparationAnxietyOverload so it didn’t let me post it (i think because i was talking about some effects of the election so i took a screenshot of it and there’s pictures of the message below. 
@toastydoodler
oh, I didn't know you weren't allowed to post your political views on here. (I mean, now that I think of it, it makes sense) Anyway, sorry for the 2 day wait, the government changed our laptop softwares and they implemented (tw: caps) SO MANY RESTRICTIONS. They banned my study platform :( and we're not allowed to use our laptops after a certain time, so I need to message this quickly. Oh thank god, that's a relief. I know protests can get pretty scary. Yes, please do <3 Same, I truly wished that he didn't win, it's honestly really depressing. I was so passionate on advocating for Kamala but then my family said I'm too "passionate about something that doesn't regard me", which upset me. That's so true! I mean if you agree with his policies and his views, well then good for you, but don't you think that electing someone who has criminal charges against him as president is honestly just so absurd? Like these people clearly are not in the right mental state to judge one's character. Yes, I'm not too sure about the charges but they are charges nonetheless. I'm actually so aggravated that someone like him, can actually be elected like (tw: caps) OMG. Like are people out of their minds? (no offense in an offensive way) The wall thing is also honestly diabolical. What happened to harmony and unity? What happened to accepting illegal immigrants? Just so done with his so-called "policies". Insane that 74 million Americans voted for that Lays chip packet looking human like whatttt. (I don't judge people, just that in my heart he doesn't act like a normal person) His policy about (tw) abortion is to give the rights of abortion to the state, which is as good as making it illegal for some American citizens. It is insane that abortion can be "illegal" because what happened to free will? There are so many cases of women out there, suffering and yet he wants to implicate this law? Downright horrible. I hate him so much like I literally could insult him so much and not feel bad about it. The gender things you mentioned are also so valid, like why can't he just accept people for who they are? And conversion therapy!? I've never heard of a more (tw) stupid thing. (sorry if this is triggering :( im just so baffled at the world) I see, it seems like it's a part of one's personality, thank you so much for answering my question. I really appreciate it <3 The gun thing Trump wants to implement is also quite absurd, he wants to hire retired police officers that are armed to be stationed at every school? his policies are literally giving how a kid would approach a problem. Like, oh an influx of immigrants, let's build a massive wall to keep them out! LGBTQ+ people that I don't support, straight to therapy! Abortion? Oh, I'm lazy so I'm just going to give the decision to the state. (essentially giving the rights of so many women out there to the state like what the actual freak) I'm so sorry if this response has triggered you in any way, I just needed to talk about it a little, I have so much bottled up (for no reason apparently, I don't know why I'm so affected) so it was nice having a little rant. I hope you know that I'm always here to support you in any way, I hope everything over there is doing fine as well. Thanks so much for having the courage to express your views, especially to someone like me, who has little business in political affairs. I'm going to talk about more light things now, everything is so depressing when it comes to politics. Yeah, I'm not a big sweet person, I would love to try health bars. I love protein bars and some nougat bars. Oh, that's maybe why they were really gummy and not chewy at all. the texture was totally different from what I was expecting lol. I'll refrigerate them the next time I get them. (American candies here are honestly SO expensive, a packet of Trolli crawlers here cost SGD 12 per pack. And they are super rare to find, especially in common supermarkets. Sour Patch Kids cost around SGD 5-6 per pack as well. Oh! and the other day I saw a SGD 15 dollar pack of Skittles Gummy Clusters. I need to start saving up my money if I ever want to buy them) Since it's the holidays for us here, I'm starting to advance study on Literature for my next school year, and I love Shakespeare stories but the English makes my head hurt, and I'm not the one who'd stray from complicated texts. I've been refining my brain recently by studying more so I guess that's what I do most of the time, other than swim, read and play mobile games. How's everything over there in school? (You don't have to answer if you're not comfortable <3) Thanks so much for putting in so much effort into your message, I really appreciate you talking to me. Again, so sorry for the 2 day delay <3 Stay safe and talk soon bestie! <3 :)))
@SeparationAnxietyOverload school’s going pretty well, thanks for asking. i have a project due soon that i really need to work on but it’s (tw caps) SO BORING. i need like three more sources, a page of notes, and a physical project of the subject and i only have until the beginning of class on friday which sounds like a lot but i am a master procrastinator. the last time i had a project for this class i finished it in the period before. since my section is about ancient rome and christianity in the 520s-540s CE i think i'm going to make a chariot because romans did chariot racing all the time. it caused a riot once. i think that it’s good to be knowledgeable about other countries’ leaders, because it tends to affect more than just the country itself, and if you visit you already know some of the more important laws. your description of him was completely accurate, i always call him a cheeto with a wig because that dude is (tw caps) ORANGE. that’s an outrageous price for a little thing of candy! we started reading romeo and juliet in english and the words sound so weird. it feels like a different language. i love swimming! unfortunately all the pools are closed at this time of the year because it’s too cold for swimming. right now outside it’s 32 degrees fahrenheit or 0 degrees celsius. pretty chilly! yesterday there was a grade vs grade girls flag football game (not the football everywhere else kind the american kind) and my grade won! i played a lot because i was the one snapping the ball, which means i threw the ball to the person who was going to throw the ball to other people and then i had to push the other team away from her. it was fun but it was (tw caps) SO COLD LIKE I WAS FREEZING MY FINGERS OFF. i even had gloves and a hat off and i couldn’t feel my fingers. but it was still fun. i hope you’re having a nice day!!! talk soon bestie :) <3 <3 <3
@toastydoodler
that's good! The project sounds (tw: caps) SO TIRING and I haven't even looked at the content. You could say that my attention span and brain has been literally rotting since school has ended. I love the chariot idea! I would love to do it as well. I didn't know that they had a riot about chariots! Yeah, I don't know why my parents keep saying I'm too girly and loud :( (sigh) But thanks for saying that, it comforts me :) (tw:caps) HAHA yeah, why does he look like that? That's so real, I feel such a deep sense of regret when I spend so much money on something that I don't know the taste of. That's really relatable, my brain actually is getting fried after 30mins of reading, and I used to be able to read a whole 400 page book in one setting. Oh, I thought there were heated ones, or are they called Jacuzzis? I lowkey would love that weather, it's so hot right now and humid so my skin is (tw:caps) ALWAYS OILY AND GROSS. I took 5 showers IN A SINGULAR DAY. It feels good after though. Good job on the win! Sounds pretty cool! When I was in middle school, I used to participate alot even though I was super bad. I hope you had the most fun! I get the numbness thing, cause everytime I go swimming for more than an hour, my fingertips are literally frozen I thought I was going to turn into ice. I literally had to get out of the pool and rub my palms while blowing them. This never happens when I'm in a cold atmosphere overseas so I wonder why I'm so affected by cold water lol. I'm actually having a meh day (slightly worse than decent). It's my mom's birthday, yay and whatever. I hate birthdays and I hate almost every festival because I hate how ugh it is yk? Idk most people love these things but I despise them. It's awkward (with my family) and it somehow always ends up in fights that I get so annoyed by. I don't even have the right or confidence to get angry and I am literally always the one mediating the fight, it's exhausting. I'm only barely past the age of a kid and I already have to do so much. I just want to be a kid again, I'm drained. My childhood best friend was kind of (well not mean) weird today over text. My mom was finally persuaded enough to buy me a kobo and I was super happy and grateful. I told my childhood friend and she said she was super happy for me! I was happy too! And she replied after I told her about the happy news and I kind of reacted to her message irl and didn't like reply to her in text. She must've thought I was ignoring her or leaving her on read. She then proceeded to tag me in a story that she made, and it was a screenshot of our messages and it said: "how can someone leave me on read after literally having a conversation?" I was so upset after I saw that like 5h later because it's my mom's birthday and we were out. I was so confused because I didn't understand and I asked her about it and she said that she thought it was funny how I was so "busy" to the point where I could have a conversation with her and then just stop. I was so scared and worried because she's literally the only person I have to talk to on my phone left and I just started apologizing so much and I think she hates me. A listener on 7Cups that I used to talk to alot just came back from a study break and I suppose that's good. The cake we had was nice today. I'm gonna start crying later because (tw:caps) I CANT SEEM TO UNDERSTAND ANY SHAKESPEARE AND IM LITERALLY GOING TO HAVE A MENTAL BREAKDOWN. I also don't know why I bought a new cutter 2 days ago and I'm actually going to cry so much rn. I'm worried about friends, family, social interactions, studies, and my future because school starts in January and we're going to have so many camps (overnight ones which I totally wanna self-exit for). I really want to call my school counsellor to see if she can do anything. seems mean of me though. (tw) I just want to exit for a little and come back maybe a month later. I wish could be possible. I've almost completely lost my interest in reading. I'm just tired. I hope you're having a good day though. Love you and talk soon <3 (sorry for the rant)
@SeparationAnxietyOverload i’m sorry it’s been so tough. it’s not fair of your friend to be doing that to you. you responded to her! and you were busy. you were having a conversation and something came up that you couldn’t ignore. that’s what happens. she should be able to understand that. i think you two need to have an open conversation, which is hard to ask for but if you can both explain your side of the story then you might be able to get along better. Shakespeare is really hard, but if you need help feel free to send me the paragraph(s) you’re reading and i can try to help. don’t be afraid to talk to your counselor, advocating for yourself isn’t mean. it just takes some courage. i know how hard it is, i have a hard time asking things of other people too. you definitely shouldn’t have to be the one meditating the fights. i don’t think your family realizes how lucky they are to have you. you’re one of the strongest, smartest, most caring people i know and i hope you know that im so glad you’re here. i understand feeling drained. when i feel drained i like to go for a walk in the woods, so maybe just sitting outside could help a little? bring an ice pack though since it’s so hot. it might be a good idea to talk to your listener friend too. they could probably help. on a lighter note, we do have jacuzzi’s here but they’re more commonly found in hotels because you have to clean them more often and they’re harder to care for than pools. they’re also generally inside. right now outside it feels like 24* fahrenheit (-4* celsius) so it’s pretty chilly. as i’m typing my fingers are freezing. i hope your day gets better! i’m here for you. love you bestie <3<3<3 talk soon :)
@toastydoodler
yeah, I really hope this was just one big misunderstanding :( I'll try to have an open conversation, but I'm afraid it'll be really awkward, but thanks for the advice <3 Will do! I just used a website that translated the old English to modern English, so it's way easier, but I'll ask for help if I need to, thank you! Yeah, I've been thinking about reaching out to my counsellor recently, and I'll probably do it when school starts. Thanks for the reassurance <3, it is really tough mediating the fights and I probably shouldn't be doing that all the time for my own good. Aw, thank you, my family never says that and I really appreciate it, especially when it's coming from one of my favorite people on the planet <3 I can try, I'll probably do it soon with one of my siblings, I used to do it all the time, but then my mom became concerned about our safety and yeah. I'm also going to work for my dad soon, so I'll have less time on my hands. But I'll definitely try doing them, thank you! Yeah that makes sense, I do see (or hear) a lot of people in America hiring pool boys to care for the pools, it must be so much harder with Jacuzzi's. Wow that's really cold, right now here it's about 28 degrees Celsius ( about 82.4 Fahrenheit), so it's cooler than usual but not as cold as America right now. I wish you a nice cozy day ahead! Talk soon and love you bestie! <3 :)) ⛄☕
@SeparationAnxietyOverload thanks, i’m nice and cozy in my sweater. as soon as november hit all of my chunky sweaters came out and i’ve been living in them. nice and warm! today has felt (tw caps) SO LONG. i can’t wait to go to sleep. on the bright side, i had some really good pasta bolognese today. we went to a restaurant for my dad’s birthday so i got pasta because the other stuff was kind of expensive (it was like steaks and fish and stuff) but it was actually delicious. i finished my project. it turned out alright but i just hope my presentation will be okay too. the conversation probably will be awkward if i’m honest, but the awkward ones are the ones you learn the most from. at least you’ll both come away with more understanding than you had before. also this is kind of a random question but what are movie theaters like in singapore? here they’re really overpriced and can range from super fancy to filled with garbage. movie popcorn is supreme in my opinion though. i’ve got a few movies i want to watch so that’s why i thought of it. i’ve been picking through some wonder woman stuff lately (i like superheroes but i don’t do DC much so i thought i’d look into it) and i want to see the movie. the reviews seem good but i’ve seen a lot of criticism for it too so i don’t know what it will be like. i hope it’s good. anyway have a good day! love you <3 <3 talk soon bestie :)
@toastydoodler
haha no problem! I love it when I'm warm and cozy in the cold too. I wish I had more sweaters and baggy pants lol, sometimes I have to keep wearing the same types of clothes in cold countries when I vacation to ward off the cold. that sounds honestly amazing, being warm and not too warm. Haha I get you! Yesterday was my first day of "work" and I literally needed eyedrops *for the first time in my lilfe because I lowkey felt like my eyeballs were so tired of looking at computer screens as I typed. Today is my break though, and I spent the last 3 hours making my dad's birthday gift. (tw: caps) ITS YOUR DAD'S BIRTHDAY? HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! 🥳 I hope you guys had/have a nice celebration that brought you joy! The restaurant sounds so good right now lol. Good to know you enjoyed it :)) It's good that at least you finished the project, so that'll be a plus! Don't worry about the presentation, just go with the flow, at the end of it all even if it's awkward or not, you will be done with it and never have to worry about it anymore :) Oh! Movie Theaters are like pretty clean in my opinion, they have like sofaish single seats that are in a row and there is like a huge projector ish screen over a stage at the front of the room. The stage has like 2 flights of stairs at the far ends which are exits and people come from the back of the room. The room is usually like huge and it's really cold. The cinema (we are used to calling it cinemas here) also sells snacks at the entrance. So like think this really big store with like a huge 3d sign in front that has the name of the cinema and then a cafeteria looking window with cinema workers selling snacks. The snacks are pretty good, but I prefer the nachos to the popcorn because one time I bit on a hard kernel and my tooth hurt so bad lol. But I understand why you'd like them. Then there is this ticketing area next to the snack area where you purchase your tickets and there are like many cinema halls in the cinema and it's like deeper into the cinema where there are like hallways leading to the halls (sorry for the weird sentence structure). It's actually really expensive here too, it can cost like $40 per person and snacks can cost anywhere from $7 - $15. The last time I've been to one was two years ago 😭 I really want to go too! I wanna watch Smile 2 but then I'll have nightmares for the rest of my life. Fun fact: I only started to sleep alone when I was 11 because I had such vivid imagination that every shadow looked like something scary. It was such an ordeal. But I got over it i guess. I'm not a big movie person, but I prefer DC because of this girl called Raven from Teen Titans, and there was an actual movie series called "Titans" and it's basically Teen Titans but not animated. I binge watched it when I was in Japan for 2 weeks, and I only slept like 5h everyday because of it haha! Anyway, it was nice hearing from you and talk soon! <3 Sleep well bestie! <3
@SeparationAnxietyOverload it sounds like our cinemas are pretty similar! i can’t ever watch horror movies (i'm a wuss i know) because i don’t do well with scary things. i don’t like seeing the people get hurt. i’m sorry you had such a hard time as a child, that sounds awful. i’m glad you’re doing better. i think i saw teen titans once and i thought raven was the coolest too. i never watched a lot of cartoons when i was younger because my parents wouldn’t let me. it was always educational shows or sometimes the old superhero shows, like the original batman and robin from the 1960s. you might want to get some blue light glasses if you’re going to be in front of screens all day, i hear they really help with sore eyes. when i was younger i got an eye infection and my parents had to bribe me to use the drops because as a rule i don’t like most things coming towards my face or neck. that’s part of why it was always such a struggle for me to get my hair brushed, i had/have a sensory thing where i really really dislike certain feelings like my hair being pulled, even if it’s by a brush. it’s mostly better now though. our dads must have such similar birthday dates! happy birthday to yours as well. i love baggy clothes because they always have pockets and they hide my frame. i especially love cargo pants. also overalls because my pair has eight pockets. i love pockets. they’re so handy. thanks for the chat bestie! love ya, talk soon :))) <3 <3 <3
@toastydoodler
That's cool to know! Same, I'm terrified of jumpscares lol. No it's okay, I think that it's fine to be scared of scary movies. Thank you, I hate my childhood, but I have the future to look forward to. haha that's cool! Same, they always told me that TV would make my brain rot. I hope you had fun watching those shows as a kid though! Yeah, I'm definitely thinking about getting a pair, or even bringing eyedrops. That sounds awful! I had a stye once and I am still terrified of those things. I get it, I hate it when strangers brush against me too, I visibly shiver, I'm sorry if it troubles you too. That's great! I usually just avoid close contact lol. thank you and you too! Same! I love parachute pants and puffy hoodies so much. I feel like a cool kid lol. It does have many practical uses <3 Well, thanks for the chat as well and have a nice day/afternoon/evening/night <3 Love you :)@toastydoodler That's cool to know! Same, I'm terrified of jumpscares lol. No it's okay, I think that it's fine to be scared of scary movies. Thank you, I hate my childhood, but I have the future to look forward to. haha that's cool! Same, they always told me that TV would make my brain rot. I hope you had fun watching those shows as a kid though! Yeah, I'm definitely thinking about getting a pair, or even bringing eyedrops. That sounds awful! I had a stye once and I am still terrified of those things. I get it, I hate it when strangers brush against me too, I visibly shiver, I'm sorry if it troubles you too. That's great! I usually just avoid close contact lol. thank you and you too! Same! I love parachute pants and puffy hoodies so much. I feel like a cool kid lol. It does have many practical uses <3 Well, thanks for the chat as well and have a nice day/afternoon/evening/night <3 Love you :)
one of these guys. i ask because 1. they’re adorable and look like little robbers and 2. we saw one when we were driving yesterday (almost ran over it but it waddled off — couldn’t even run, he looked so silly). did you know that they glow blue and pink under uv light? scientists don’t know why yet but they’re working on it. also what is your favorite ice cream flavor? i like cookies and cream. i’m halfway through the wonder woman movie and i’m really liking it so far but i had to pause at a really awkward moment and now i’m having a hard time going back. i hate the awkward moments in movies it makes me feel like i’m going crazy. hoping it gets better soon. i like the fight scenes because she does all sorts of crazy stunts while using a sword. imagine being that stunt person! i could never. anyway have a great day/night bestie! love you :))) <3 <3 <3 (´∩｡• ᵕ •｡∩`) @toastydoodler
Haha! I get so happy when someone actually wants to get to know me better. I haven't seen a possum, but they look adorable. Yes! Little panda thieves, someone should give them a little brown rucksack to complete the look lol. Woah, I didn't know that! It must be really cool, considering that even scientists haven't found out why yet. Sorry I have a really random question, is it a crime to run over an animal in the US? Like roadkill and stuff. Anyway, I love matcha and coffee ice cream, but recently I got hooked on Earl gray tea flavoured ice cream and omg! It's life changing. I don't fancy sorbets or anything sour because I think I like sweet ice creams better. I don't really crave ice cream though, only gelato and waffles from Andersens. (Do you guys have the ice cream shop Andersens?) The classic cookies and cream is so good too, I especially like eating a scoop with maple syrup lol. That's nice to know that you're enjoying yourself by watching movies! I love those movies with like magic and stuff, and I really wanna watch Eternals, have you watched it? I also love Wonder Women so much because she's a baddie and she's so cool! I love her lasso thing because I used to have an obsession with long ranged weapons. The stunt person must have so much gymnastic knowledge, imagine how strenuous their days are lol. Anyway I hope you're resting well and are having a good day, I'll try to text more often and more quickly. Love you and talk soon! ❤
@SeparationAnxietyOverload we don’t have andersens here (or at least i’ve never seen one) but it sounds super good! i heard of earl gray ice cream once in a book but i’ve never tried it. it sounds interesting though! it’s not a crime to run over an animal here unless it’s endangered. sometimes they do more to your car than you do to them. my mom’s friend accidentally hit a deer once and it absolutely totaled her car. sadly most animals don’t make it through the crashes. i haven’t seen eternals but i hear it’s really good! it definitely seems interesting. long ranged weapons are so cool! i personally am a big fan of bow and arrows. i think that archery is really fun. i made brownies today! they came out a little rich because i used baker’s chocolate but i thought it was good. what do you like better, brownies or blondies? talk soon bestie, love you :) <3 <3 <3
@SeparationAnxietyOverload i just wanted to check and make sure everything is okay. i haven’t heard from you in a little bit and i wanted to say im here for you if you need me. sorry if this is prying but i was just worried. anyway have a nice day ❤️ love you
@toastydoodler
hi im doing okay! How about you? I was just a little busy, sorry for any worry that it my have caused you <3 But I'm honestly doing pretty okay. Thanks so much for your concern. How are you? I would love to hear more from you in our next text :)) You have a nice day as well, love you bestie and talk soon! <3 :))
@toastydoodler
oh that's pretty sad, because honestly they the best ice cream, then again, you guys probably have so many cool American ice cream chains! That's pretty sad to be honest, I wish they would have more protective laws regarding animals and stuff. (especially animal abuse :() It sounds so scary, I would not have the guts to even drive thinking about the many animals that could just run into the road. Deer are so pretty, it's my mom's favourite animal. I think anyway. Same I really wanna watch it but I'm so busy at work and today is a horrible day (at work at least, but I still have like 6 hours of work to go :(( ) I'll tell you about it later. I love archery too! I took a trial class once and I felt like Katniss Everdeen lol. I love the Hunger Games, hehe. I wish I could bake more treats! I hope the brownies were delicious and yummy for you! It must be nice having a warm sweet treat during a chilly day. I'm going to bake cookies for Christmas soon, the reason I couldn't this year was because our oven broke and we decided to completely remove it. We only just bought an Airfryer, and I'm going to make Airfryable cookie dough with matcha :) I'm actually not a big fan of brownies, but I prefer the ones that are made with cocoa and is just fully made of luscious chocolate <3 What do blondies taste like? Like a lighter brownie? Anyway, today during work I pulled up the excel spreadsheet I've been working on for my dad and it was (tw: caps) COMPELTELY EMPTY OH MY GOD. I literally was so devasted because I've been keying in the values meticulously for 2 weeks straight. I was so disappointed. I also have a huge throbbing migraine and I think it comes from staring at a screen for too long. Anyway at the same time I'm also trying to help my dad set up his new IPhone, which is completely new because we don't usually use Apple products, and I'm trying to transfer all 200GB of important doccuments. Sigh. What a massive headache. After the data transfer from my Andriod to my IPhone, NONE of the doccuments, pictures of videos appeared in the IPhone, and the Apple Contact Helper is telling me to erase everything on the IPhone after almost a day of setting up and transfering data. I'm so exhausted and I've literally been passing out on my bed these few days after work. Working is so ardous lol. Anyway I'll try to log in everyday to catch your messages, super sorry if the huge gap in messages made you worry, I totally get it. Love you and talk to you soon! <3 <3 <3
@SeparationAnxietyOverload oh my god it all got deleted??? that’s awful! i’m so sorry. all that work down the drain :(. i hope it gets easier. i like deer too. once i went to a zoo and they had a thin in where you could pet the deer and they were really skittish but it was so cool when i finally got to touch one. don’t worry, they didn’t bite or chase lol. ooh your matcha cookie sounds delicious! lmk how it turns out. blondies are like brownies but they’re vanilla instead of chocolate. sometimes they have white chocolate chips in them. archery definitely made me feel like katniss too lol, just without the gore. i’m not gonna lie i read that when i was like nine and was (tw caps) NOT ready for it. i was not prepared for all the death. now it’s one of my favorites though. i wasn’t having a great evening (my mom was making me kind of mad again, she’s gone all the time for work but still acts like she’s around. it upsets me that she doesn’t even know how she’s hurt me over the years) but i saw your message and it made me feel better :). i hope you get a break from working soon, you deserve a rest. i love hearing from you (as always). have a wonderful day bestie! love you :) <3 <3 <3
@toastydoodler
Yeah, I think it's because of some software problem, I didn't even manage to salvage my progress but that's okay, I just gotta put in more effort to finish this spreadsheet before my vacation starts. Thank you, I really appreciate it, it isn't so bad but I was a little frustrated. That sounds so cool! Our Singapore Zoo don't have deer, but we have mousedeer! They're cute little guys. Side note: Have you ever seen a horse in real life? Anyway, I'm making the cookies immediately after I get home and shower and stuff, and I'm super excited lol. I'm making two batches, one with matcha and one without. I loved the Hunger Games, but I was superrr young as well, I didn't get much of the deeper meanings that the plots had. I'm thinking of re-reading the hunger games so I can get a fuller understanding of all the amazing lore. the violence is kinda sad, especially Rue's death, and Prim's. I'm sorry you have to deal with all that, you're an amazing person and you don't deserve to go through such an ordeal. I hope you feel better, maybe take a nice warm shower or do some reading? I wish I could be there to help you out <3 I'm always here if you need to rant about anything. I wish that our parents could be more aware of their actions and how they impact us, it's so hurtful when we bring up how they hurt us over the years and they react with nonchalance or ignorance. It kind of dismisses our feelings? And it definitely makes us distressed. I hope you're feeling better as of now, just don't care about her for now, just focus on yourself and the things you love <3 Working isn't that bad for me, at least there is less drama in the house now. By the way, random question, but are you going for vacation anytime soon? I had a super nice idea that I'll take some videos of the scenery in Hongkong when I go there, and I'll "bring" you along! Wouldn't that be amazing? Thanks so much for everything, you make me feel so seen and wanted <3 You have a wonderful day too! talk soon bestie! <3 :)))
P.S. My tomato plant grew two little green tomatoes and I named them Sofia and Marcelline. I'll send you a picture of them when I can. Talk soon! <3 :))
@SeparationAnxietyOverload i’ve seen pictures of mousedeer before and they’re so cute! my town actually has a lot of horses because we’re so rural, and there’s like five horse farms in the town. a lot of people are very big on equestrian here (riding horses), but i’ve never tried it. i’m sorry this is coming so late, i haven’t been home a lot these past few days because of thanksgiving break. i stayed at my grandparents’ to help out. if you didn’t know thanksgiving is a celebration of when the pilgrims and the native americans had a dinner together when the colonists settled. they fail to mention that the colonizers murdered the natives and stole their land, which is why i don’t like the morals and stuff behind thanksgiving very much. i don’t like that it was built off violence. but i watch the dog show and the parade and eat the meal every year. i ran a “turkey trot” on thanksgiving, it was a 2 mile run (kind of a race but not really). how were your cookies? i hope they were delicious! thank you for understanding. you’ve always been there for me when i most needed it. i value our friendship more than most relationships in my life. i just hate the way she overreacts to everything, you know? for example yesterday i was making pan-fried tofu and i needed corn starch. the bottle felt a little light so i went to the pantry to go find some more. she asked what i was doing and when i told her she flipped out and started scolding me for not looking in the bottle. there was just enough in there for me to use, but she was just being such a jerk about it! it’s like that all the time. if i make a mistake or do something that annoys her she blows it way out of proportion. and then she leaves again. she travels a lot for work so she’s never home to see important stuff. sports games, achievements, she’s never there. i don’t know if it’s better or worse. i know that she loves me but she doesn’t realize that she hurts me too. i’m sorry for dumping all this on you. you’re the only person i can talk to about things like this. thanks for everything. i hope things are getting better for you too. i’m technically on a “vacation” right now but i’m not going anywhere. i’m just out of school for a few days. that would be so awesome! i’ve always wanted to know what it was like there. travel buddies :D 🧳✈️ have a wonderful day! love you bestie :) <3 <3 <3
ps. sofia and marcelline!!! omg! that’s awesome. can’t wait to see them!
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Yeah they really are such gentle little cuties. We have turf clubs (basically a horse riding place), and we only can see and ride horses there. It's really rare for most of the public to see horses in person, other than when you sign up for horse riding lessons. We don't have free roaming horses though, Singapore simply isn't like a very rural place, despite all the greenery and stuff. It's okay! I was caught up in Thanksgiving too, I don't hate thanksgiving, but I don't like it much either. Last year, it was super like grand, and my mom cooked a lot of stuff and ordered turkey and whatnot, but we got into a lot of fights while eating and it wasn't that fun. This year, we didn't celebrate that much, and only prepared like 4 dishes and ate quietly. But Thanksgiving in America sounds like a big deal! I hope you enjoyed it as much as you can <3 Turkey trot sounds interesting, I wonder how turkey became such a big part of Thanksgiving. But yeah but cookies are okay, I'll send you a picture (it might be ugly because I used my airfryer so the cookies aren't exactly perfect. They were pretty good, I would've loved to give you some :)) Aw, no problem, you're like the closest friend I've got right now <3 I will always be there for you <3 It's unfair that she reacted that way, you were just minding your own business, yet she had to just make a mean comment or scold you over such a trivial matter. I'm sorry it's that way, my mom gets angry over the simplest things too, I hope you're feeling better. I wish they would just stop and have a proper conversation with us instead of reacting based on what they perceive the situation to be, it's truly unfair for us and how we have to listen to them instead of them to us, when we are literally their children! And they hold that above our heads all the time, yet when it matters, they completely disregard it :( Yes, and what hurts us the most is the fact that we know that they are our parents and we love them. I love my parents sometimes, and I hate them sometimes, I think it's part of life now. No it's okay, I feel happy that I am someone that you can rant too. Your mom doesn't seem to be there for you at all, and you deserve someone to be there for you <3 You are an amazing individual and I hope you know that you deserve the world :) I'm okay, it's currently the weekend so I'm technically off work right now. Oh so like a holiday no school break? I get that, it must be nice to live in a country where a vacation can be a 2 hour drive to another state. Sometimes Singapore gets boring because it only takes 45 minutes to drive from one end to the other and there aren't really a lot of unique experiences when you lived there your whole life. But I love my country <3 I hope you enjoy your break to the fullest! <3 Hehe, I'll make sure to send you a video of everyday! It would be so cool! Like you're with me in person <3 I can't wait for that, and don't worry I won't forget about it. Yup! Travel buddies! <3 :) Thank you and talk soon bestie! <333
P.S. I'm so proud of those names haha! I'll send you a picture as well. I also watched Moana 2 yesterday evening and I'll send you (yet) another picture of the theater, so you can see it for yourself <3 Have you watched Moana 2 yet? If not, I'll say it's really good and not spoil it for you. Love you and talk soon!
P.S.S I might be watching Wicked today. Have you watched it? Love you <3333
@SeparationAnxietyOverload i’ve been trying to see wicked but almost all the seats at the local cinemas are sold out! i heard moana 2 is really good and now i want to go see it. from the pictures our movie theaters seem about the same, yours are just more organized lol. that’s so funny i never thought about the fact that there are places where you can’t see horses when you’re driving to school or walking through town! those riding places sound really expensive. it’s nice that for such an urban place it’s so green. most of our cities here are pretty… well, gray seems like an accurate description. there’s cool stuff, and parks sometimes, but for the most part it’s not very earthy. i’m sorry your thanksgiving was so tough. i hope you were at least able to enjoy the food. have you ever had pumpkin pie? that’s a classic. i honestly don’t know why turkey is such a big part of it. i think in Canada they do ham instead. it is kind of interesting to drive to different places, but depending on where you are it looks a lot different. in the midwest and the middlish part of the country it’s a lot of corn. i mean a (tw caps) LOT of corn. in the city it takes an hour to get anywhere because of traffic, but im sure you understand that. hopefully someday you’ll find something interesting, even though you’ve seen a lot. the cookies look great! and in my experience, i always say done is better than perfect. they might not look like gordon ramsey prepared them, but they’re not burnt and they probably taste good so i call that a win. lmk when sofia and marcelline get ripe! all my plants are dead from the cold now lol. talk soon bestie, don’t stress yourself out too much with work and family stuff. make some time for you <3 talk soon bestie! love you :D <3 <3 <3
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we didn't end up going to watch Wicked, my mom changed her mind, sigh. Anyway, it's been like that for our theatres too, Moana 2 had almost no watchers because of the Wicked hype. Yeah, I don't think cinemas can look that different lol. That sounds so cool, your lifestyle is so nice, I wish I could just see horses randomly :) They are, especially because most people who train there are doing it because they pursue horse riding as a sport, not enjoyment. Yeah, it is different from most urban areas out there, but it really isn't much different, just more grass, trees and nature. No it's okay, it wasn't so bad. I've actually never had pumpkin pie, but I really wanna try one. How does it taste? I honestly dislike rotisserie chicken, turkey or any form of meat that is presented that way. I like it when it's presented like just meat. (please tell me I don't sound weird) Anyway, I'm okay with ham, because it's not like a whole pig presentation, and it's more like a leg of ham. I love corn lol, and I've always wanted to grow a field of vegetables or fruits. Scenic driving sounds really nice, it sounds like it'd give us a lot of freedom. I really don't think it looks that good HAHA, it tasted okay though, it was my first time baking a cookie. Yeah I guess so. I definitely will! I'll try my best to make them grow perfectly hehe. Question, do your dead plants grow back in the summer? Anyway, thanks so much for your message and I'll talk to you soon! Love youu <3333 :))
@SeparationAnxietyOverload aw, i’m sorry she changed her mind! you were really excited. i hope you can see it sometime soon. i definitely do enjoy the small town life. i wish there were more people my age in walking distance though. everyone around us is already out of college and/or has had kids of their own (also out of college). me and my siblings are the only ones under 30 out here. at least there’s school though. pumpkin pie tastes mildly sweet and is spiced with things like clove, nutmeg, and cinnamon. it’s got a custardy texture and people often put whipped cream on it. i think it’s good, though it’s not my favorite. but it definitely tastes like the holidays. don’t worry it makes sense that you don’t like it presented that way! it’s always been a part of my life so i’ve been kind of desensitized to it but it definitely does look like the bird, which can be a little off-putting. i’ve never been a ham fan myself, just because it’s a little too salty for me. corn is delicious :) what do you like better, corn on the cob or something different? i personally like it on the cob with butter. it is quite scenic here, especially in the fall! it’s pretty when the leaves turn. most of the highways don’t show it off great but there’s some nice routes that have great views of the trees! for the plant question, it actually depends what kind of plant it is! if it’s a perennial (like daylilies, rhubarb, daisies, sage, and asparagus) then yes, and leaves in trees grow back each year, but otherwise no. also guess what? we got our first snow of the season! here’s a picture: 
it melted by nightfall but it was pretty in the moment. anyway hope you’re doing awesome!!! love you bestie!! talk soon :) <3 <3 <3
@toastydoodler
no it's okay! watching two movies in a week is too far fetched haha! I'll definitely watch it soon, considering I love plays and movie adaptations. Small town life sounds peaceful, but it definitely has some setbacks, but that's okay! It must be hard, living with people that aren't around the same age as you, because then nobody would really relate to your living experiences. It can be hard when nobody understands your views at that age. But yeah, there is school, and your siblings! It sounds so yummy, and it must be really nice to eat when you're cold. I know that feeling, some dishes I don't like, but when I eat them during the holidays, it elevates the experience lol. Yeah, but it's still food so I gotta eat it, you can't waste food. I'll definitely have to get used to it lol. I love corn so much, it's amazing <3 I'm fine with any type of corn lol. Corn on the cob generally tastes sweeter and like more juicy but they always get stuck in my teeth when I bite around the cob lol. I love corn alone as well, especially if it's well buttered, like you said :) woah, it sounds so pretty, I love autumn and fall seasons because it's definitely the prettiest! oh okay! You're so cool because you know so much about the plants! Sophia and Marcelline are browning at the bottom is that normal? The picture is so awing it literally took my breath away. It's soo good! I feel like I'm in the Nutcracker or something! Your photography skills amaze me <3 :)) I wish I could visit somewhere like that soon! Hongkong will be cold, but I don't think it'll snow. Thanks for showing me the picture and talk sooon!
p.s. I'm doing okay, can't wait for 18 December (I'm going vacation) I'll make sure to bring you along hehe! <3 <3 Talk soon bestie! :))))
@SeparationAnxietyOverload if it’s reddish i think that’s just them ripening, but if it’s brown that’s not a great sign. i’m not really sure what’s wrong but try putting your finger into the soil up to your first knuckle. if it feels damp then it has enough water so you don’t have to water it again yet but if it’s dry then you can water it. if the plant’s big then maybe they needs a bigger pot???? i don’t know, i hope it clears up. i can’t wait for the 18th either!! you’re going to have so much fun hopefully. thanks for the compliment <3 the environment definitely gave me a lot of help lol. snow is always pretty. except for when it’s been sitting for a week and is all gray and slushy, then it’s nasty. one of my favorite music artists has been teasing a bunch of new music and now i’m going crazy that it’s not released. other than olivia rodrigo who’s another artist you like? she has a lot of good songs. i thrifted a watch today! i’m buying a different band for it though because the old one was kinda gross. the other day i thrifted a sweater but i have yet to wear it because i need to wash it and since its wool it will shrink in the wash. we have to go buy some woolite or something. i have homework but im putting it off again. sigh. bad habits prevail again ***. anyway that’s my life rn! sorry this is so scattered it’s late here and my mind is all over the place (as always lol). talk soon bestie :))) love youuu <3 <3 <3
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oh okay, I'll check when get home later. But it's mostly at the bottom of the fruit that has a change in colour from green to like a brownish colour. I'll try my best to check up on them. Thanks for the advice! :)) yeah I hope so too, I can't wait to take loads of pictures and stuff. No problem! You are a very talented photographer :) The environment definitely plays a big part too. Yeah I can kinda see why it may be gross after a few days of sitting there, but snow is nice nevertheless. Oh who is it? For me, I love Conan Gray as well, and ofc, Taylor Swift, I have very white girl music tastes (am I allowed to say that?) That's amazing! I love that for you, what does it look like? How does thrifting work in America? Oh and I'm super curious about garage sales as well. Thrifting here is basically normal shopping, the cheapest thing you can get here thrifting at vintage stores are about 15-20 SGD (11.8 - 14.91 USD) Clothes are really expensive here lol. I prefer hoodies to sweaters but hey they are nice and warm. Congrats on the great thrifting finds! No it's okay to procrastinate sometimes, I do that a lot too, but as long as you get back on track after, it's perfectly fine! My thoughts have been a little scattered recently, especially with the stuff I want to do. I'm making a book tracker to track all of the books I read. I'll send a picture soon. It's okay and rest well! Don't stress out too much about school or homework. If you need someone to talk to, I'll be here! Talk soon bestie! <3 <3 <3 :)))
