I think I have OCD
ive been thinking I might have OCD for a while now but havent gotten diagnosed or anything but I've been taking a lot of those online you may have OCD tests from credible websites and so far most of them have said that I have OCD.
some of the things I've noticed is that I really like certain numbers like 3 5 10 and numbers that end in 5 or 0 or even numbers examples of this are with the TV volume it has to be even or end in a 5 and other things like tapping I have to do it 3, 5, or ten times.
or this other thing I'm going to try my best to explain it I'll go one by one pressing my finger down on a hard surface and push it forward a little bit and and wiggle it side to side this is one of the most persistent compulsions I have and if I'd don't do it makes me so uncomfortable like I want to peel of my skin.
also I have some disturbing images that pop in my head at the most random times and they make me super uncomfortable to and there are some other ones a paper towel squeezing and rubbing in-between my teeth and nails on chalkboard. and also this doesn't happen that much but if something is not even of in the center "perfect" I guess it bothers me a lot.
I hope no one who has had diagnosed OCD think that I'm trying to undermine your experience or anything like that I'm just looking for some validation I guess and some tips maybe on how to manage some days are good some are worse and the more I think about it the more I feel compulsive but yeah thanks.
@coolpeoplez
Hi. Judging from your description, you might be suffering from some mild to medium OCD, so talking to a therapist I think could be helpful.
The source of OCD behaviours usually is in anxiety from something like not feeling safe, doing something we do to please other people or being overwhelmed by something in general. Finding the source of anxiety can be important, as I understand it can be a discomfort to you.
I think what you experience might be actually on the verge of hyperactivity (tapping with fingers), perfectionist tendencies (all things perfectly centered) and obsession with digits (personally, I don't like any license plates with 0, and I think 110 is much prettier than 4502 😉).
But, please, be aware of the fact that even if you are diagnosed with OCD, it doesn't mean at all any death row sentence. It can just mean some of your present time or your past might be hurtful, and you are just a sensitive person, maybe with some special skills.