Hey here's a little about my struggles TRIGGER WARNING
I'm Vivienne and I'm 20 right now. I haven't been diagnosed but i believe i have symptoms of OCD . I've been struggling for around 5 years. It makes my life harder for me , for example :
-I get anxious to eat food because I imagine that the person who cooked handled it with dirty hands and all that
- I have difficulty in breathing when i smell any awful smell because I imagine the particles of the source of smell going in to my nose
That and all kinds of weird irrational thoughts.
Morever a couple years back I was literaly seemingly crazy and my parents even took me to a psychiatrist . I was prescribed certain drugs and they helped me improve.
I had weird symptoms for example:
-My neck would turn on its own like someone else was controlling my muscles
-My leg would stiffen up mid walking and i couldn't continue walking
-I would have random thoughts that weren't mine just flood my brain
-Sometimes I would even crawl around like a child...its like i couldn't control my body
Safe to say a lot of these happened while people watched at home and sometimes even in public with the neck thing and was really embarrassing.
I'm glad some of this symptoms are over and I act like a normal person even though in my head, i still have all these unwanted thoughts.
Other than that i also have these random intrusive thoughts about disgusting things that make me disturbed, for example ; this is TMI but I tend to imagine things like poo going in to my mouth and this can be triggered by seeing a brown streak in the toilet🤢
I'm sorry about that info but i just wanna let it out 😭
On top of that I have anxiety , depression symptoms, emotional imbalance and sort of psychosis.
I really hope this finds you well and I'm really sorry if I offended you. I'm just hoping to find someone who can relate and can support me on my struggles. I also wish to support others and find friends. Thankyou and sorry. 🙏
@VivienneMbithi
hi.
Thanks for feeling comfortable enough to share, I can't relate to the neck thing, or OCD, but can relate to the intrusive thoughts
for me, I've been experiencing some crippling anxiety lately, and the intrusive thoughts I've experienced is just anxiety, (EX: "Do they think I'm normal?", "Do they appreciate me?", "Do they think I'm weird?")
I just can't help but think that sometimes, and your post helped me relate.
Thank you Pink, I really thought to just air it out and I'm glad to find someone who can relate. Thank you for your response ð¥°
@VivienneMbithi
Glad to help!
@VivienneMbithi
If you feel like you are experiencing obsessive symptoms, it might be a good idea to seek a professional so they can properly diagnose you.
Apparently, everyone experiences intrusive thoughts. It’s just that people with OCD tend to get stuck on them and start to wonder why they had that thought, if it’s a reflection of who they are, what it means, etc. Hence, obsessing.
People without OCD are able to have an intrusive thought, simply think about it for 2 seconds, and then get over it. They simply do not obsess over it.
Good luck.