Is this body dysmorphophobia?
When I was a kid, I had people commenting on my weight for my whole life , I was shy and awkward and wouldn't stand up for myself , I wish I did.
When my teenage years hit I wouldn't really eat , I tried my hardest to be skinny like my other friends , it's all I'd think about , it would consume me .
Now as I'm older I've gained weight from my 17 year old self I'm now almost 20 and it's all I can think about , I feel disgusting with the way I look , I don't feel like myself no more , I feel guilty everytime I eat something , I feel insecure anytime I wear something outside .
It's not even that I'm ridiculously overweight either
It's just the fact I see myself everytime I gain weight ten times bigger than I am.
I'm exhausted from my mind thinking this
