Slam Poetry Motivation: When I Was 13

Heyo beautiful humans!

So, I have decided that for my next few forum posts I will be sharing slam poetry with you! I personally, love slam poetry.When I am struggling, it gives me hope. Hearing others share their stories or thoughts on various topics reminds me that others have journeyed this path and come out on the other side smiling, stronger than ever before. It reminds me that I am not alone and that I will get through this. I hope it can do the same for you! I will try to find the transcript to the video I post, but if I can't, my apologies! Big hugs and lots of love <3 <3 <3

I myself have so many things to say about each of these poems, so if anyone wants to start a conversation about it feel free!

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(To get the full effect of this incredibly moving poem, I highly encourage you to click this link: https://youtu.be/LaXvaIteP-8)

When I was 13 I didn't believe that I was beautiful

So when people told me I was beautiful I wanted to look them in the eyes and ask them what that meant.

What is beautiful what do you mean by that, but instead I would smile and say thank you

because I don't want to come across as rude not accepting their comment, but how

do you accept the compliment you don't understand you don't believe?

My entire life I never felt beautiful

I was told I wasn't the point that I believed that I wasn't because of the way that I look.

Not because of who I am because of my appearance.

I was not beautiful I looked in the mirror and thought that was all beauty could be.

What you can see in a mirror is what I thought it was because the world around me was telling me that that is beauty.

So when I looked in the mirror and only saw things that I wish I could change

I didn't feel beautiful I saw my acne no gap between my thighs my discolored teeth

I didn't feel beautiful when someone would say something like God doesn't make mistakes

I would want to raise my hand and say well what about me what about me because I felt like a mistake

I always felt like I couldn't feel beautiful because every movie every song that I heard told me that I couldn't without

the validation of others

They would say you don't know you're beautiful but here I am to tell you that you are

So that means that you are but why why can't I feel beautiful on my own

That was until I realized that I can

It all changed one day when I was a library and a girl laughed out loud at the book she was reading

I thought to myself that is beautiful and it confused me for a moment because

I wasn't talking about her appearance

I ran home and looked in the mirror and ask myself are you beautiful and for the first time in my life I responded with yes yes you are

I repeated it 10 20 30 times until I was consumed with the thought I am beautiful

I finally didn't see my appearance

I saw the people that I love around me in a sea of support

I saw things in the world that make me happy I saw the little things about me that makes me unique and different from the rest of the people in the world

I finally felt beautiful

I want to walk that night and name something beautiful about everything around me

I could finally see beauty and everything around me that was everything to me

If I could tell the me that didn't know her worth or the fact that she is beautiful anything it would be this:

Some people live their entire lives without knowing that they're beautiful

Some people die with the thought I am NOT beautiful understand that beauty is perception

Though there is a dictionary definition of the word beauty, beauty has no real definition because it is redefined every day

You, you are a definition of beautiful

Someone finds your laugh your intelligence your thoughts and every little thing you don't like about yourself beautiful

Who are you to tell them they aren't you are blinded by your insecurities and hid away by your fear but please try and no true beauty

Because when I was 13 I wish I knew how beautiful I am

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