Weekly Check In

Hello,

im new to the forum but not new to bettering myself. However the progress has been really touch and go. A close friend of mine passed away 2 months ago and some life circumstances have changed for me. Life feels incredibly overwhelming and I decided to make a definitive change. Today marks a week without weed and a few other crutches I’ve been using. I’ve never reached out to a support community before partially because of the belief I could resolve things alone, supported by incremental improvements, and because of fear. I’m not sure what the feeling of fear is from but it’s always been present. I reached a point where I wasn’t content with myself and needed something more concrete. The community on here is refreshing and I appreciate everyone. I’ve never talked about my experiences, besides with some previous partners, but I was assaulted on separate occasions when I was younger. Coping with that has always been hard. I feel like to improve myself and have the impact I want on the people around me I should try my best to “resolve,” that trauma. I feel like I owe the people I love the best and healthiest version of myself.