I don't seek happiness anymore, I seek peace.
Growing up in an abusive household has left me with a lot of trauma and a lack of life skills, making everyday challenges feel overwhelming. For me, things that seem trivial to others, like handling rejection, respecting and establishing boundaries, trigger intense emotional reactions. But through this journey, I’ve realized that I can’t control everything that happens in life. Instead, I can choose to accept my emotions peacefully and not fight against them.
My focus has shifted towards achieving inner peace rather than constantly seeking happiness. I understand now that life is inherently challenging, and while I can't make it easy on my own, I can equip myself to face it. This means finding a balance between opting for ease when it’s available and believing in myself when it’s not.
I’m learning to soothe my emotions and handle situations with more grace. I'm choosing self-compassion, self-love, and community.
Of course, my focus is still towards making the most out of the joyful moments, and choosing easiness wherever it can be found. But somethings are challenging, for now at least, so I choose to accept them, and focus on soothing the turmoil instead of fighting it.
Healing is a journey, and I’m taking it one step at a time. By embracing inner peace and focusing on my ability to handle difficulties, I feel like I'm creating a more sustainable approach to well-being.