After all... nothing else matters.
Hello, I have made some publications about my relationship problems. To summarize, I will say that for 5 years I had a relationship with a woman, with whom, the communication problems were constant. Her family is not very communicative and very restrictive. She has broken up with me on several occasions, but she usually looks for me after some time, and I allow her to return.
Now, things seem to be a little different, in December 2018, doctors diagnosed their mother with cancer, to this day she is still struggling, it has not been easy for my partner, since her family, as I mentioned before, does not seem to offer her nothing of support. My partner is depressed, angry, her head is full of worries and ... well, I think he reached her limit, at least with me. A few days ago, she decided that it was best to let us go, because supposedly, we had lost the way, and she was feeling overwhelmed with her mother situation.
I did not agree, I never agreed with this separation, I always offered my unconditional support, all the time, but she rejected me, pushed me away. She never realized that she had me at her side to endure anything, she never let me support her. I feel devastated because I feel that she got bored with me, that maybe he is looking for consolation with someone else, why? if I was always there? It is unfair! I am very confused, because she says that despite feeling disconnected from me, she loves me, but she never specified if she wanted me as a couple, she just told me that she loved me and she wanted me to still being friends ( i can't do that)
. I do not understand anything and I feel guilty for denying my friendship, I feel that I am the bad one in history when leaving her alone with her sick mother. I feel that I have gone beyond everything, I tried everything, absolutely everything to make her feel better, to make her feel loved, supported, but she simply told me that she no longer felt that connection ... she was never clear to tell me things in front. I do not know which way to go now, I feel very sad.
Now, she seems to be much calmer, I see some of her publications in F B, I suspect that she is attracted to someone else, why could not she trust me? Why do not she love me if I gave her my whole heart?
I was with her in the most difficult times, and I would do it again, but it does not matter, she does not care. 
Hey there @Bonnie1042 *hugs* (if you are okay with it)
It is really nice to hear from you around here! 
That sounds super tough. I am sorry to hear that you have had to go through all that. Also, I am sorry that she had to go through all that.
I mean, a family member having cancer is always a very tough time - not to justify her actions - but I can imagine that it can have a deep emotional impact on someone. I know it has had on me anyway which can really just make things very complicated.
Of course, communicating these feelings is something that can be very helpful and as you have said, you have always been there for here to help her and it was she who has decided not to share this with you which is tough. I mean, as sad as it is, you can only help someone who wants to be helped by you.
I am not sure, things can just get very confusing when it comes to love and I know it might not help but it may be better if she was really not happy. I mean, if she was not happy it is very much likely you have not felt as happy either since it can really have an effect on you if someone that close to you is not happy around you.
I mean, definitely it takes some time but I do hope that you have been able - or will be able - to find someone you can share a happy relationship. :)
Stay strong and aweosme!