@Nemo2023 I'm so sorry about this. Family should be a place of unconditionate love and acceptance, you don't deserve any of their intolerance. What you deserve is freedom to live your life any way you want to and express who you truly are without judgement.
Your desire to leave is absolutely valid, such an intolerant family can only hurt you more. They don't deserve your loyalty. It's ok to start planning a life away from them where you can be free. I don't know if you can do that right now or if you still rely a lot on them in economic terms, but it's ok to start making plans and gathering resources as soon as you can. Make sure to be safe.
I wish you all the best!