What a silly morning :)

I have rainbow beads on my black converse, i put them there not too long ago, about a month ago. my mom didn´t say anything and nor did anyone else say anything. i´ve received one compliment on them. this morning, my mom said for me to take them off as soon as i get home from school,

¨those colors mean gay¨ she said, or something like that, i looked at her confused, because this entire time i´ve kept quiet about sexuality with her, considering what happened a year and a half ago, accidentally coming out to her was something i want to forget.

¨you are straight.¨ she said sternly at me.

my intention to put the rainbow colored beads on my converse was so they looked pretty, not because i was coming out to the world as this gentle pansexual giant who struggles having a simple conversation with people, internally i thought this was silly, so i said and i quote:

¨oh but the beads i put on my shoes are solely for decoration and style, i had no intention of meaning anything else.¨ 

as i sat in the car with her and my siblings, she continued about how people here in america are disgusted by all things (true, true by the way, from personal experience) and that even a simple act can get people to think about you differently, so that made me wonder, 

who assumed i was gay because of my shoe colors? what if i were straight and i just genuinely liked rainbow colored shoes? why are we assuming a sexuality over shoes?? 😂

i mean, she wasn´t wrong about me being gay, like openly gay and keeping it a secret from her, but imagine if i were straight 😅

my mind came to the one person my mom interacts with, and i genuinely don´t like this woman who talks to my mom at all because she goes on forever with her right after school, and causes us to be late, so i assume its her who assumes something about me considering my mom doesn´t talk to anyone but her lately and nobody has had a problem with my shoes 

anyways i don´t think i´ll ever be approaching that lady ever again, i´ll stick to waiting in the car, thanks. i´ll keep my styled shoes and my gayness to myself.

😃🏳‍🌈🫶

if you get to the end of this,  if your comfortable this is your reminder to come out to a person your close with! your loved! ❤🥹