I can't talk because of voice dysphoria

Hello I'm ftm and I suffer insanely of voice dysphoria which makes me avoid to talk to people almost completely. I need help because my current situation is that I met someone online a few months ago and she knows I'm trans and that I feel really uncomfortable with using my voice. But we are in a relationship since 3 months and i showed her my voice like 3 times in a short voice message but I need to talk more often with her and i want to sooo bad but I notice that everytime i was about making the voice messages I got nervous like crazy, overthinked how I sound , was focused on trying to pass and i couldn't speak with Joy. I want this to end pls pls pls I wanna be normal i don't know what to do.

Or do i have to wait until I'm on hormones which is a reallyyyyyy long time ? Is that the only solution? Thank you for reading I'd appreciate some comments!