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communicativeApple9560
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PathStep 1 Compassion hearts365 Forum posts109 Forum upvotes138 Current upvotes138 Age GroupAdult Last activeOctober, 2024 Member sinceJune 17, 2023
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speaking english & german and I'm 18 yrs old

Recent forum posts
Gender dysphoria got too much
LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by communicativeApple9560
Last post
 October 25th
...See more I'm suffering so so so so so so much. My dysphoria killed me fully now and I constantly feel terrible. Like im a pre T trans guy and my dysphoria got so bad that I can't enjoy one second in my life. I can't enjoy going outside cuz then I see cis guys, i can't enjoy conversations cuz there are topics that trigger my dysphoria, i can't enjoy social media cuz there are cis guys and topics that trigger my dysphoria and I can't touch myself or do anything where I have to be close to my body. I need help I can't do this anymore. I avoid contact with other ppl because of that and when I talk with my gf there's always coming up topics that trigger my dysphoria because I'm triggered by the smallest things.
I can't deal with gender dysphoria anymore
LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by communicativeApple9560
Last post
 September 10th
...See more It's gotten worse over the years but now I've reached a point where I can't deal with it anymore. I isolate myself extremely and can't even go out with friends anymore (at all) because there are cis guys there and it hurts to see them.what should I do help
Little kids + teaching it that I'm trans
LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by communicativeApple9560
Last post
 September 19th
...See more Hello! I'm trans ftm ( a boy) and i have a brother who is 8 years old. He noticed that I dress like a boy and that i make my chest flat. So he says really often "You are not a boy you are a girl😡😡😡" / "you are a girl" (in a rude way) . I understand that he's a little kid and might struggle with understanding what's going on BUT I suffer really much of gender dysphoria so it affects me really much that I have a person in my own house who keeps telling me that I'm not a boy. My mom is against explaining to him that I'm trans and is also a little bit scared that my brother will tell it to my family in the next family gathering. (They are really much transphobic). I dont really care abt it because I will have to break the contact to them anyway when I'll be on hormones and only keep my close family. ANY TIPS ON WHAT TO DO TO STOP MY BROTHER TORTURING ME? I'd really appreciate it. Thank you for reading : )
I'm glad I can be part of bring trans
LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by communicativeApple9560
Last post
 August 15th
...See more Seriously what have yall done society destroyed trans ppls self esteem with that whole "cis ppl leaving their trans partners for cis ppl, there is sth .. missing..." , indirectly saying we are not enough, etc... We aren't missing anything.. cis ppl are the ones who are missing sth. (The fact that cis ppl mean body parts with that shows that even more) Trans ppl are amazing. Their experiences made them 10000 worlds better. Authenticity, independent, empathy, knowing themselves better, happy, alot of knowledge, Strong and many other stuff. It's not fair some ppl aren't seeing us but do they even deserve that? Don't bite them. Pity them. That one post saying "every trans man i have seen has made me fall in love with the world a little more. don’t you want to help me fall in love with the world a little more?" I'm trying to heal from that trauma. With the forcemasc brothers it's now 1% more of accepting myself and since I love trans ppl I want to make following opinion to become more popular: trans bodies are beautiful. Trans ppl are amazing and I'm at a point where I'm thinking that if I'd be born cis I'd deeply envy them. ( If you disagree with any point of that i DONT want you to tell me that. Thank you )
I can't talk because of voice dysphoria
LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by communicativeApple9560
Last post
 August 14th
...See more Hello I'm ftm and I suffer insanely of voice dysphoria which makes me avoid to talk to people almost completely. I need help because my current situation is that I met someone online a few months ago and she knows I'm trans and that I feel really uncomfortable with using my voice. But we are in a relationship since 3 months and i showed her my voice like 3 times in a short voice message but I need to talk more often with her and i want to sooo bad but I notice that everytime i was about making the voice messages I got nervous like crazy, overthinked how I sound , was focused on trying to pass and i couldn't speak with Joy. I want this to end pls pls pls I wanna be normal i don't know what to do. Or do i have to wait until I'm on hormones which is a reallyyyyyy long time ? Is that the only solution? Thank you for reading I'd appreciate some comments!
Am I being dramatic or is this sth to worry abt?
Relationship Stress / by communicativeApple9560
Last post
 August 4th
...See more Helloo so my partner has behaviors that I overthink abt if they are normal or not. I have a hard time telling if a behavior is normal and nothing to overthink about or not. So in short: my partner talks abt what she thinks is pretty on human bodys like for example "high cheekbones are pretty". another behavior is that she doesn't react to my compliments that much anymore just like She doesn't appreciate it that much anymore. We are still giving eachother compliments and have deep conversations where we say how important we are but not as much anymore. It became less and in a dryer way. I don't like that so I don't know what to do or what to think :( ty for reading I'd appreciate a comment rlly much
What can I do to start trusting someone
Relationship Stress / by communicativeApple9560
Last post
 July 27th
...See more I struggle with trust since years ( and I know where it comes from ). But I really need to begin to trust because those fear thoughts are killing me. I put pressure on myself reallyy because I'm scared my partner will be disappointed If I don't trust her. : ( help
Struggling with trust
Relationship Stress / by communicativeApple9560
Last post
 July 22nd
...See more Hello I rlly need opinions right now. I'll try to make it short. I'm in a 2 month relationship and everything is more than great. She said it feels so real and she never felt like this and it's the same for me. We once talked about our exes because they both weren't great ppl. So her ex wasn't good. He ghosted her and cheated on her and stuff. And yesterday she told me that close of the end in the relationship where she was ghosted and ignored she downloaded a character ai bf app and received attention from another place which means it was cheating. And she said it's reallyyyy cringe to her now and she's ashamed of that and 1000000% against that stuff now. ( I asked her why she didn't just break up and she said that she tried multiple times but her ex always insisted in taking breaks). But there's that sentence ppl say it's " once a cheater always a cheater ". So I got concerned and confused. I'm not sure if a character ai robot bf counts.... i talked to her and she said she promise me she wouldn't do that to me because it's a selfish thing to do and if there's a problem and she doesn't feel loved she would tell me and if it's not better then break up. She also alwayssss talks bad about cheating ppl. That she doesn't understand them and stuff. She always seemed pretty loyal to me it was always easy to trust her. But now that happend and Im concerned. I don't know what to do or what to think thats why I'd appreciate some opinions on that and help reallyyy much. Thank you.
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