Dysphoria

Hi community! I'm new here and I am a closeted transwoman who is desperately struggling with dysphoria as of late. I have managed it for years but I am beginning to lose my grip on it. The issue is I own a business AND have a family including a wife and son. People depend on me. I can't just up and pull the plug on their lives. Ive begun taking phytoestrogens which surprisingly have had a noticeable effect of fat redistribution which I love but I feel like if I continue (I will continue. I can't stop because I love the changes) it will graduate to taking actual estrogen and it's a matter of time before I'm outed. Feeling trapped and hopeless.