Is it normal to struggle with your own transness

I do not have Internalized transphobia or anything but As a trans man I struggle a lot with accepting my own identity. Im terrible at pronouns for myself and others, My subconscious mind still kinda think im a girl though its improving, and its just not like how everyone says it is. I didnt just magically come to the conclusion that im a man. It was slow, time consuming, and hard af. Its a year since I orginally came out as trans and im still processing it. Mainly because I came out a non binary last year then trans binary(ftm) this year. Most people I know are amazing at pronouns but I just cant seem to get it like them. I try, really hard, but my brain struggles so much and I feel awful. Idk can someone please tell me. Im so torn.