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Journals & Diaries / by bubbleSea26
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December 27th, 2022
...See more Just a rant: a couple weeks ago I began slowly slipping into a depression (again) and I knew what was happening (like always) so I reassured myself that I can get through it. I just needed to wait until the holiday break where I'd be travelling to a warm sunny place and going on a nice cruise, making friends and forgetting troubles. Well, its the holidays now. No cruise. No warmth. No friends. No christmas. Nothing. So now i'm depressed. its odd now cause my depression has changed ever since my cousin passed. We werent all that close but Charlie (my cousin) was transgender like me. They lived in Quebec where the schools deny students their identities and well.. now Charlie is gone. anyways, I always get kinda scared whwn this stuff happens cause once it gets bad, there's little I can do. Plus it feels like theres a distance rn between me and every one of my support people. AND my therapist cant' see me till january 7th. it all sucks and I feel bad about saying it sucks cause I know its dumb for me to be depressed. My life looks like paradise on the outside. My problems are all so minuscule but they still suck. Idk
Cancelled vacation
Journals & Diaries / by bubbleSea26
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July 2nd, 2023
...See more My family is 'Christian.' As in, we have other family that is christian and we celebrate all the Christian holidays but were not actually Christian. My grandparents are though, and they're rich too, so christmas for me has always been this super huge event. As a kid I had 3-4 Christmas's every year. Now I'm a teenager and my grandparents don't live as close to us anymore. With COVID and stuff christmas has mostly been going on vacation or a small family event. It feels a lot less like Christmas. obviously thats a *** thing to complain about, but it's hitting me really hard this year. This year, like last year, we were gonna go on a cruise. My grandma is not doing well health-wise so this may be her last big vacation with us. I also haven't been able to see my cousins - who I adore - for a long time and we we're gonna see them at one of the ports the ship was gonna stop at. I short, this was a very important vacation to our family. Now, I live in canada, and theres a huge snowstorm hitting my area right now. Its been bad for that past three days actually. Yesterday we went to the airport to get on our plane, which had so far not been cancelled, and waited for hours. First, there was just a slight delay cause the flight crew was a little late. Then, they were really late. And finally, our flight was cancelled. Not because of the storm, but because they didnt wanna wait any longer for the flight crew. my grandparents paid for the cruise for all of us and now we can't go. Cruise lines are also really stingy about refunds so they have likely been duped out of a bunch of money. We have to stay home for christmas but we dont have any of our usual traditions. No tree, no stockings, and barely any decorations. Im a little happy cause I have a bunny at home who we could never bring with us on vacations. I love her to bits and so its nice to spend xmas with her. in the end, I know my problem is trivial and I should be happy with what I have, and I am, I'm just really upset watching the last fun part about christmas go down the drain.
What genre of book/movie/whatever would you wanna be in
Anxiety Support / by bubbleSea26
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December 25th, 2022
...See more Imagine you could be transported into any genre of book/movie/comic/musical/whatever... What genre would you want to be in? Some extra questions for the bored people out there: * Why would you want to be in that genre? * If you could choose the form of media you would be brought into (EX: The Hunger Games) what would you choose? * Would you rather be brought into another world or have this world change to fit your choice of genre? * What kind of character would you be? my answers: I'd choose to be put into an OP Isekai (type of manga/anime trope where your transported to another world) I chose this cause it would be so fun and I love chaos and I get to be hot af I'd wanna be put into a manga obviously, and of course I'd wanna be brought to another world however my bunny would have to come with me and finally I'd be a villain who doesnt harm anyone but just kinda does chaotic random stuff and makes fun of all the old timey people. Plus I'd have a lot of animals.
Life sucks man
Self-Harm Recovery / by bubbleSea26
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April 11th, 2022
...See more Everything has been going bad and my mom just found my exacto knife so im back to the classic bread knife now. Its so much worse and im so annoyed. I live her and I know she just cares about me I just wish she understand what would really help is hugs and reassuring wprds
Is it normal to struggle with your own transness
LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by bubbleSea26
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January 28th, 2022
...See more I do not have Internalized transphobia or anything but As a trans man I struggle a lot with accepting my own identity. Im terrible at pronouns for myself and others, My subconscious mind still kinda think im a girl though its improving, and its just not like how everyone says it is. I didnt just magically come to the conclusion that im a man. It was slow, time consuming, and hard af. Its a year since I orginally came out as trans and im still processing it. Mainly because I came out a non binary last year then trans binary(ftm) this year. Most people I know are amazing at pronouns but I just cant seem to get it like them. I try, really hard, but my brain struggles so much and I feel awful. Idk can someone please tell me. Im so torn.
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