Married.....but questioning.
politeKiwi2674
December 3rd, 2021
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I am 39 married have a daughter. All my life have kept a secret which I beloved was I was bi since I was about 12.
I have kept it hidden almost 30 years now. Often engaging in secret relationship with other bi/gay guys.
I am really struggling to hold my life together nowadays. I am attracted to guys, I look at them differently now and I feel my desires taking over. I am currently casually seeing a guy and love being with him.
I don't sleep well anymore. I struggle to satisfy my wife. I am ashamed. I'm weak and a coward, as I have never told anyone before. I feel disgust and deep hatred towards myself.
Anyone else in similar position? Gone through this?
Sorry if I disgust anyone 💔