reallyoverallofit's one line a day

It's a very bad day.

Today I am not in pain anymore but I have a lot of anxiety about my health and I am mad at my coworkers for being *** people and I am sad because I want to do better for myself and can't at this time. 

I am livid because last Sunday my IBS flared up worse than ever in a long time because I ate the same god damned thing I ate a day before that didn't flare me, and I have been struggling with the pain, discomfort, gas, and increased trips to the restroom ever since. 

Today is Saturday and I appreciate that I don't have to be in a office that wants to try and belittle me every turn of the second hand. 

Still dealing with health crap that's remnants from last week's flareup so I am more tired than I wanted to be today.

I technically missed Monday but I'm still awake and it's only 12:13 so here are some words to cover today: therapist day, earthquake, nerves shot, yard work, house work. 

Today I went to thankless job and drank coffee that was too strong and had PVCs and saw some good coworkers and lifted weights and came home a felt lost. 

Meant to do this last night but came home from work, went to the grocery store, picked up dinner, started packing for Colombia, played with the kitties, and then fell asleep. 

Yesterday I spent basically the entire day on tech issues from my paystub account to my bank and was p***** by the end of that and today I am two days out from travel and feeling super panicky.

p*ss mood

I feel like I'm living in a nightmare. 

everything feels really off today

i have so much g d anxiety right now because love life and career are all f'd up

so tired but idk why

everything feels super extreme and intense right now

So tired today

Today I am wishing I had cut my uterus out of my body in July instead of cauterizing it. 

Nerves. 

It's been a productive uplifting day but my IBS is ruining a lot of the good feels

Last few days of inflammation and it really starts to wear on me.