Twinkle's Crazy blunt remarks on life
I have my own diary but I can't write stuff there without fearing of the fact that someone will read it . So here I am to do my rants about life.
My introduction:
Name : Twinkle
Age: 15+
Birthday : 8th July
Zodiac sign: Cancer ( according to birth month ) , Libra ( according to name )
About my family :
- My parents are nice but their relationship is toxic which I hate a lot
- My brother is caring but annoying
- I love my grandmother but the distant opinions and generation gap hurts a lot
My School life :
- It's all about grades
- I have friends but I am still alone
- There are stuffs I am hiding
- I am scared for my exams
This diary is for all my questions . Those questions which are always on my mind . Those unanswered questions that I want to ask but am not able to
@LittleSunshine2036
*sits with Twinkle friend and sends big hugs if okie* 💖 proud of twinkle friend for creating a safe diary space (: 💖
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*hugs back* thank you ni . It took well of courage to create one . I am no longer keeping quite and hiding my feeling . I am trying to learn to express them . That's one of the reason I am on break from listening
@LittleSunshine2036
awwe :’) 💜 i’m proud of you for that buddy *hugs tighttttt if okay* 💜 tbh i think it can be hard to reach out :’) to talk about how we feel/ what’s going on in our worlds 💜 it’s hard. and it takes courage 💜 i’m proud of you friend.
@LoveMyMoonflowers
I am proud of me too . Life has been too fast that I feel there is a lot process which I haven't. People are leaving me and I want to cherish every moment I get to with the ones that are still here with me because I am scared that they will go too . It is getting harder and my questions and pain are just increasing
@LittleSunshine2036
*hugs tight if okay* 💜 i hear you friend 😞💜 is there anything i can do to help or maybe ease all the pain in some way? 💜
*keeps hugging friendo* 💖
A Second Option
Why am I always a second option? I feel like people only remember me when they have no one . Trust me I love being there for others but why is that when I need people I am always alone . I feel like they only want me because there is no there for the moment .
I am invisible. Only visible when people need my help . I understand that I need to be positive but really is being a positive person means I have no right to express the negative feeling which are growing inside me ? Why only me ? Not like I would like if someone else become a second option because of me , but still . Why me ? Was my birth decided the fate that I'll have no one at the end of the day. All alone , with a fake smile .
Wish life could answer questions I have in my head but she won't. Because she is always quiet . Only he will answer me . Only knows the answer expect her . And I am scared of him . He is death how will he answer me ? By killing me and taking me to a dimension where all my pain will be gone . I ..... want it gone .
I want my answerrrr . Pls... pls answer
@LittleSunshine2036
Hey dear sunshine, I can understand that feeling , I still face the same thing , evryday it feels like my life is overwhelming. You're not in this alone , I'm here for you. *hugs youuu*
you can talk to me anytime you want
love you lots
@LittleSunshine2036
Dear Diary ,
My today's paper was not good and my watch got lost . The same one that meant a world to me . I feel like a child who lost his ball . I cried a lot . How could I be so careless ? I feel like the worst . And also I know people will think that why is this stupid girl crying for a stupid worthless watch but you know why .
The watch was my first gift from my mother . Never in years she bought me such gift and I feel so stupid for losing it . She said that it's okay but I can't forgive myself .
The urge to do something bad is increasing . I can't cry infront of her . But I need someone to hold me . Comfort me . But at the moment I have no one . So please let me cry and cry and maybe.... hurt myself
