Toffos Diary

I see a lot of other people have one of these so I guess I wanna make one too and have a place to put down my problems

TW: a lot of stuff. You’ve been warned

My problems are tiny to a lot of people here but Idk.

School starts on tuesday and I’m scared. Freshmen year was rough for me. I had meltdowns almost everyday, no friends, people making fun of me, I’m more of a loner than the loners. Even the special ed kids have more kids to talk to then me. Even the mentally i’ll kids don’t want me in there group

I feel alone. Any social event I go to is because of my twin. and it’s stupid i feel this alone

and i’m abusing xanax I guess. I sneak it out of my moms room sometimes. And i’ve been drinking a lot

and i purged the last few days cause i haven’t been feeling good physically for a while. I feel weak and tired and always sick to my stomach but mom and dad say i’m faking it

and i feel broken