Rowan corner

I honestly don’t know if I’m going to make it though this year of school a week In and im too stressed to think without the potential to start crying and it was pretty back last year 

(This is just a rant about being autistic and having communication difficulties)

Sometime it comes as a shock to me (and other people) that I (someone with autism) have trouble communicating with others /sarcastic 

My mother who I try my hardest to believe helps to support and accomodate me and my siblings disorders but I just don’t think she’s equipped often times. She also has autism and so when she yells as me that she can’t communicate with me she think it’s a problem With me (which to be fair I do struggle quite a bit in different situations) but I just think it’s a little unreasonable that we have to try to With her Instead of her trying to communicate to use

often times in communication she gets frustrated very quickly and so raisers her voice which people in my house often don’t respond well to but she kinda blames use saying we need to Geat use to having difficult conversations which I guess is true 

one last think that annoys me about this topic is when I see other people who have difficulty with communicating like being mute or have a bad stutter or other stuff like this I’m like yeah no that fine give them some more time and make them comfortable and I think my mother would agree like she would help them then when it comes to me because I don't struggle all the time constantly with talking and it only happened with uncomfortable or stressed people still see me as someone who can communicate normal all the times 

like what my disability has disabled me no way (sorry that sounded a little mean) 

So long story short I’m dropping out of school cuz it’s too stressful and took too much of a toll on my mental health and I know I won’t be able to complete this year but I feel so bad for leaving like now I just feel like a coward that drop anything whenever it get to hard like I can’t go though life doing only what is easy even if that would be more conventional but like I can’t run away and yet here I am 

also I have no idea how I am suppose to tell my friends I’m dropping out