moonspace. (my lonely corner)
TW just in case.
hi,
this is just my new diary thread. :') …i was going to write an introduction and then a paragraph or two about why im making this new space until i realised i’m not a person worth knowing anyways, and nothing i say would actually matter. now that i think about it most of what i'd write would be pathetic.
*i’m doing it again - being pathetic. ugh.* anyways… there is just one note i’d like to add here… please, no replies 💜 unless i have tagged you somewhere in this space. i probably won’t be tagging anyone right now though.
this is just my new corner. my lonely space.
thanks for reading :')
- ni.
i feel weird
hot
wtf
brain
water
where’s my bottle
K i’m dizzy need water
wabt fall over sleep
I don’t care bout water
I give up
I wonder if its time to leave this place… :')
c o n f l i c t i n g
e m o t i o n s
Mask up.
i don’t want to lie but…
lies are kinda nice
We make lies because truth is scary
random but
bleh
Huge TW///sui because that’s just me.
I don't think i hate myself anymore honestly.
Not in the way i used to. i see myself as just a human yk. Life-ing through life.
When i think of death it ain’t like i hate myself and i wanna 3nd it. It’s more than that. I just want to know what happens afterwards. it’s my curiosity. it’s my… dislike (mild word?) for life in general. and what if d3ath isn’t even the opposite of life. It’s just another piece of it. Sometimes i think it’s the only way to real peace from the chaos life brings (but life likes to think it’s orderly smh) And yet… Idk. Maybe.
I sound like an idiot.
anywho.
I want to d1e. but these days it’s mostly because of my obsession with d3ath in general. Craving it.
I can't d1e. And if/when anyone asks me about it i say the same thing. I don’t have the willpower (maybe), i don’t have the means. I don’t have the brain to plan dude. Or the energy. takes *** ton of planning to not end up doing something stupid.
Im talking too much about this
Bleh
Ni you know… some things should stay in the diary.
