may is not much
I am tired of having to choose, my husband is so immature, he hates my daughter, I am sick of him trying to keep me from her, all excuses , I will go without him ! With my kids, he is so fake when he talks to her, ughh, I am so stupid to even listen to a word he says!
Well today is ok, not much to do or say, feeling little blah, miss my daughter in ND, I am praying to see her in a couple of months!
Another Monday, ughh kids need to leave I'm 10 minutes, no lunches made or hair or teeth brushed, Mondays are my worst day! I can't get them to get out the door on time .
My husband has been in the hospital overnight due to his heart being out of rhythm at work, well, he is still the same, I have realized I need to be prepared if anything happens to him, but he isn't worried, it is a real narcissistic person, the day after he is still yelling at everyone and I just don't understand!
I wish I could deal with 1 issue at a time, but I have like 3-4 looming over me, causing me anxiety and depression, moving, have no help, was supposed to happen on June 10, well now have till the 31st of may, only place to go is ourRV, every day this woman's daughter texts me and harassed me, I am at a boiling over point. My husband's health scare has me anxious, my parents are still wanting me to help them find a place close by, but hard because they have my 2 brothers and my brothers girlfriend, ages, 36, 48 and 49.ughh
I am totally terrified of moving again, I don't understand it, but my anxiety is extremely high and only when I have to pack, my husband is getting upset with me because I can't even be organized, we have to pack enough for about a month, the rest is going in storage, then we will get to move into a 3 bedroom /2 bath place, yay! I am ready to push a button a be there, but where we are staying at now says we have to be out by the 31st of this month, she gave us 2 weeks, between my husband working and his overnight in the hospital, we Don'thave enough time, especially when it's just the 2 of us, we literally have no friends, so I am afraid, this woman has been nothing but unreasonable. I am trying to get motivated but between anxiety and depression, I am sinking and feel so bad, I wish my husband would be kinder, but I know that's not going to happen, I feel on the verge of a break down, between crying and literally not wanting to move out of the house, and being angry for the situation going bad, I am not seeing the end of this darkness. I have no close friends to confide in ,1 friend I text last night, but I feel like I am bothering her and she is only good for about 45 minutes, then I guess she figures ,I am hopeless. , I need to go back to my counselor, I was doing well, but he doesn't take insurance, and it's little expensive, fiance are tight.
