in the wonders of my mindš.
hey there :D hm. last time I checked you didnāt look like meš§makes sense doesnāt itšsince there can only be one *me*āØone of a kind now arent Iš/sar. one out of 8118835999āØš·can you imagine :0 o right- you can- becoss youāre also one of a kindš sorrysorry haha :Pš¤im just messing around xDšalso itās 2am- but shush no snitchingš¤«Iāll sleep in a whilešwhen Iām feeling a bit more sane :>šš©·
wanted to have my own space.š for thoughts feelings vents or just anything on my mind.š
to whoever'sĀ coming acrossĀ :'3šplease dont lurk here.š©· I know anyone can have access to this forumĀ :')šbut please be respectfulš©·.(but honestly..I know someone will either way :Pš yāall get crazy nosy haha- itās alright.šnothing too interesting will be here anywayšif you would like to come in and be supportive itās completely okiešbut please donāt make it a regular or "normal" thing if that makes sense. just have a sort of limitšbecause Iād still like this to be just my space ^-^š)
why do I have 3 presentations this week and a bunch of baselines
i told my moral ed teacher my device was out of charge and my presentation was on there and that Iād present next lesson (and then I was gonna figure something out for next lesson)Ā
and she gave me a charger.
I got stuck in the english corridor traffic and I was trying to get out of it and then someone came and pushed me from behind or got pushed or idk and I yelled "bro" and sort of shoved back but I only heard it after- and- they said sorry. and no one ever ever ever says sorry in english corridor traffic and I turned around and it was the leena 2.0 guy and I yelled- itās okay- I feel so bad I actually feel so bad :ā)
he presented his speech thing in english today. it was so good. and the teacher said you need to have a clear voice as one of the things and someone said what if you canāt understand their accent and everyone started laughing and right when he started everyone started laughing and he had to restart because no one would stop, and someone put his full name in their presentation and said something like "and then he tried to tell him that (something I didnāt hear) but he kept stuttering and no one could understand his accent so-" Ā
now Iām in lunch. :ā) I have to present my thing as the first person next lesson
my friends absent so todays been lonely
i had to get into a group of 4 in dance. and then we had to make up a dance thing with everything weāve learnt and perform it at the end
my last dance teacher wouldnāt have ever made me do that :ā) I even got my standards card signed Iām so bothered weāre 2 and a half weeks in and it was because I didnāt have my dance trainers but I sort of canāt right now like my dad and my aunt and everything I canāt remember to get dance trainers and I canāt get anyone to buy them for meĀ
honestly my last dance teacher actually cared. she understood so well anxiety and stuff I felt so bad because she was so nice
my dance teacher this year just doesnāt care at allĀ Ā
I need to go down for art in 5 minutes :ā)
okay so. I know I said those 3 guys didnāt like me but, one of them was absent and now Iām somehow friends with the other two.Ā
Ā it started when one of the guys was aggressively trying to blend his drawing cause the teacher told him to add darker shading and he was using his finger and for some reason it was making this weird squeaky goofy sound so I was looking at him because I couldnāt draw with the table shaking and because- huh :ā) and he looked up at me still doing that and down at the drawing and up at me and I was trying not to laugh and thatās when we got comfy talking and stuffĀ
and the other guy just started talking to me too so art wasnāt too lonelyĀ
im trying to like. fit ināØand not look weird, because if Iām weird now Iāll always be weird I donāt wanna seem like umā¦.new. lost. left out. I donāt wanna seem like im the person anyone would want to targetĀ
I have friends now. and people that donāt like me, a lot of people donāt like me.Ā
