To: The Love of My Life

Sometimes, you hurt me so badly

But you're also the one who makes me feel so loved and so cared for like I've never felt before

But sometimes you make me feel terrible

You make me feel like I'm a horrible person

Like I'm selfish

Like I didn't care about how you felt and how my action made you feel

Like I just want you to put up with unpleasant emotions

Like I would do harmful things to you, and I don't even care about it

As if you see me like I used to see my father

I had very, very bad times at home for so many years of my life because of his behavior

I would never do that to others, especially to someone I care about so deeply

So it's very difficult for me to deal with the emotion when you make me feel that way

It's so hard for me my love

When you make me feel like I'm what he used to be

What have I done to you to cause you to do that to me?

Have I caused you that much pain?

I wish we had a better way of communicating

Cause I know, it's just a misunderstanding

We have a lot of misunderstanding

Cause, at times, you perceive the things I do differently than what it actually is

And maybe there were also times when I did it as well

I don't know how did we get here

Getting farther away from each other

And find it more and more difficult to talk about it

Despite always trying our best to make each other happy

Am I causing you more pain than happiness?

Would you be happier if I let you go?

I love you so much

I don't know how to live my life without you in it

You're the only one that feels right in my life

Without you, I feel so lost

Without you, I don't make sense

But I don't want love to become a shackle for you

I don't want you to stay just because things will be hard for me if you're not there

If it no longer makes you happy

I will try my best to let you go gracefully

Just please do me a favor

Whoever the lucky one you choose

Please make sure he deserves you

I know it's not gonna be easy

To find someone who is worthy

We both know

That you are too good for the world