To: The Love of My Life
Sometimes, you hurt me so badly
But you're also the one who makes me feel so loved and so cared for like I've never felt before
But sometimes you make me feel terrible
You make me feel like I'm a horrible person
Like I'm selfish
Like I didn't care about how you felt and how my action made you feel
Like I just want you to put up with unpleasant emotions
Like I would do harmful things to you, and I don't even care about it
As if you see me like I used to see my father
I had very, very bad times at home for so many years of my life because of his behavior
I would never do that to others, especially to someone I care about so deeply
So it's very difficult for me to deal with the emotion when you make me feel that way
It's so hard for me my love
When you make me feel like I'm what he used to be
What have I done to you to cause you to do that to me?
Have I caused you that much pain?
I wish we had a better way of communicating
Cause I know, it's just a misunderstanding
We have a lot of misunderstanding
Cause, at times, you perceive the things I do differently than what it actually is
And maybe there were also times when I did it as well
I don't know how did we get here
Getting farther away from each other
And find it more and more difficult to talk about it
Despite always trying our best to make each other happy
Am I causing you more pain than happiness?
Would you be happier if I let you go?
I love you so much
I don't know how to live my life without you in it
You're the only one that feels right in my life
Without you, I feel so lost
Without you, I don't make sense
But I don't want love to become a shackle for you
I don't want you to stay just because things will be hard for me if you're not there
If it no longer makes you happy
I will try my best to let you go gracefully
Just please do me a favor
Whoever the lucky one you choose
Please make sure he deserves you
I know it's not gonna be easy
To find someone who is worthy
We both know
That you are too good for the world
