Suffocating
I'm suffocating under this depression.
I can't do anything.
I pretend everything's alright when it isn't.
I have a lot of work to do but I can't finish them.
I give myself guilt yet I still keep on procrastinating.
I feel like panicking but I'm afraid of telling someone.
I feel like I am my own demon.
I feel useless.
Hatred towards myself.
I want to give up this battle.
But apparently god hates me.
He keeps this shawl of depression around me.
Can I stop fighting.
Your not alone, so much to do just don't want to get up to do them. God doesn't hate us. I remember being at the point were the end was all I wanted, but God's word (literally, turned over to a bottle of pills t.v came on to a minister "God is not through with you". Don't know how it got on that channel. ) 6 yrs. Ago . The thing is the depression stimulating issues desolved not to long after that . Came to grips with the losses and changes of my life.
I know how you feel, but I also know it does get better. The hardest step is to talk to people, but once you have, the sunlight starts peeking through again. :) Have a chat with a listener, or your doctor if you're feeling really brave, and keep going <3
You are not alone. The 7 Cups community is here.