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DreamHope
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Laziness or depression?
General Support / by DreamHope
Last post
 September 24th, 2016
...See more School's started this month and already I find myself procrastinating. I'd feel sad for no reason and put off important stuff like homework or revision until the night it's due. My brain tells me that it's depression but I don't want to believe it; what normal 8th grader gets depressed and stressed when not even a month has passed? I think I've used this excuse way too many times, I can't keep on giving myself so many excuses. But I still don't want to do schoolwork because I'm scared it'll come out less than perfect. I dunno... Is this me being mentally ill? Or it's just me making up a story to convince myself that I had an excuse to procrastinate?
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How do you continue with your life when you're depressed?
Depression Support / by DreamHope
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 December 28th, 2015
...See more I've been in a depressive state this month. Every morning when I wake up, my brain constantly reminds me of that I haven't done, what I should've done better and all my past imperfections and mistakes. It was better in the first half of the month, considering it was exam week in my school and I had something to focus on rather than my own negative thoughts. But now exams are over, school has closed down for Christmas, and I've practically lost all motivation to clean up my messy table or do the homework assigned over the holiday. There's this overwhelming feeling of sadness, and I can't focus, and I feel like crying for no reason at all. All I want to do is to lay in bed for the whole day, and mope around about my depression. But I feel like I have no legimitate reason to be sad at all, and I'm not sure if it's just an excuse to be lazy. But the feelings of sadness, hopelessness, guilt and worthlessness are still here. My family planned a trip to Taiwan, we're leaving tomorrow but I don't feel like going and I don't really wanna go and pack. Long story short: am I experiencing depression or am I just being lazy and ungrateful? And how do you find motivation to continue your daily activities when you're feeling really sad? Now that school's out for the holidays, I don't see any point in putting up a façade. It takes too much energy to do so.
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Suffocating
Journals & Diaries / by DreamHope
Last post
 October 29th, 2015
...See more I'm suffocating under this depression. I can't do anything. I pretend everything's alright when it isn't. I have a lot of work to do but I can't finish them. I give myself guilt yet I still keep on procrastinating. I feel like panicking but I'm afraid of telling someone. I feel like I am my own demon. I feel useless. Hatred towards myself. I want to give up this battle. But apparently god hates me. He keeps this shawl of depression around me. Can I stop fighting.
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Need help
Depression Support / by DreamHope
Last post
 October 25th, 2015
...See more I seriously need help, this depression is getting worse. Before it just lasted for a few hours and I could work up my motivation if I had to. Now, I can't do a single proper thing. I can't do homework or revision properly, my brain just spaces out and gives me negative thoughts. Anyone knows a way to combat depression without seeing a therapist/counseller/psychologist?
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Just teenage hormones or real depression?
Depression Support / by DreamHope
Last post
 October 18th, 2015
...See more I'm a 7th grader and I don't know whether these things I'm experiencing are just teenage hormones or real depression. I used to get good grades. For some reason last year I got a bit lazy and as a result, they slipped. Heaven crashed down onto Earth the moment I knew what grades I got for Chinese and Math. 74 and 78. You'd probably think that isn't much, but to me (I had never got grades lower than 80) it was an absolute failure. I felt stupid. Useless. Like a failure. Like a mistake. My whole life is a mistake. I couldn't be good anymore. Depression runs in my family and I started experiencing it when I was 10 but it rarely came. Now it's consistently hanging around and making me negative. I even got to the point of self-harm, I just thought my parents would be mad if I killed myself. Yes I typed MAD not sad. My mom says that people who commit suicide are selfish people because they die without thinking about others. If I killed myself, she'd be really really mad. But another reason I didn't cut was because I was afraid of the pain. Pathetic, right? I want to kill myself but I didn't have the guts to do it. I never sought help from a psychologist or a therapist, it's a stigma here that if you go see a psychologist you have something abnormal going on in your brain. I took some online tests, however, and they all said that I had depression. And I'm not talking about light depression. Okay, maybe I should get to it. The thing is, I hinted to my mom that I was feeling really emotional and down lately and she brushed it off saying it was teenage hormones and I'd be fine later on. So now I'm confused. Do I have depression or are these just the effect of teenage hormones?
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Worries?
Depression Support / by DreamHope
Last post
 September 25th, 2015
...See more I get a lot of negativity from others and myself every day. I'm worried and I think I have depression. My grades went down and wouldn't go up, I try my best at school but I just can't do anything right. I have jumbled feelings every day and they're all mixed up and messing me up. But I don't want to talk to anyone about it: it's considered bad if you get depression at my age where I come from. But after reading some of the other posts in the forum, I started thinking like am I worrying about trivial, unimportant things? I seriously don't know what should I do now. All the help I sought here seems like an act of selfishness as I had kept other people who really need a listener to talk to from getting a listener. To put it simple, I'm one messed up kid.
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