I feel that nobody loves me and nobody wants me around. I am lonely, confused and sad...I just wanna go away
@generousPenny4828
I'm sorry you're feeling this way. Please know that you have a family here in 7 Cups. We will always be here to support you. 
@generousPenny4828
I know how you feel. I feel like a burden.
@generousPenny4828 I understand. You are not alone in feeling like this, but there are people here who care about you even though we have never met you.
@champ1122 thank you so much. This is the only place I feel I can be myself.
I'm scared of being abandoned. I'm scared of loneliness. I'm scared I will go insane from thinking I will be abandoned.
@EllieDW
I think that's a fairly normal thing to think. Try not to stress about it, it will come in it's own time. Maybe try something new or different as a way of meeting new people. You will always have a family here who will never abandon you. And you should know that there is someone out there who is perfect for you. Just don't stress so much about it that you ruin a relationship. I know it's hard but you can't make a person stay even if you marry them. I know that sounds upsetting but we have to accept that nothing is certain or permanent except death. Again sounding like a downer here, but what I've realized feeling like this is that we can't really worry about these things because we can't control them. I hope this makes sense and helps.
@Cheshire94 Thank you for replying :) I hope that I will be okay but there are times I'm scared of opening up to people again because I'm scared that they will leave me. I'm trying to keep in mind that it's the way of life.
I objectify women all the time and I hate it.I wish I could speak to the opposite sex like I talk to guys but I never could because I was bullied by girls all the time in my teenage life.This has created a judgmental picture that doesn't always exist.Even if I know it's wrong I do it because it's become habitual.
I almost murdered my grandmother because i was stressed out when i had to take care of her. But now she's in an old folks home which is a relief or else i would be a danger to her. I don't know what i was thinking. Even if i didn't carried out my plans i would instead be a danger to myself. I shouldn't be allowed to be near knives when I'm alone in my house.