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Sad Thoughts, Life Thoughts, World Thoughts, Shadow's Thoughts

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ShadowTag May 16th, 2020

A place where I can be me and connect with others.

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ShadowTag OP May 16th, 2020

My original intention of joining this website was to share my story. Find my voice and relate to otherss. along the way gripped by despair i lost my sight of the intention. I have indeed declined inside myself. I'm becoming overwhelmed I am breaking down slowly chipping away at my foundation. This "new start" is trying to be my "new end" but I won't let it destroy me or take my body or mind away from me. I have to slowly work up the strength from my buried face. I realize that this gut-wretching sadness, is my story as well. It's all my story, it's a new page of my suffering on this earth. I am faced by grief. I have all of my life falling apart. It is being torn apart so I can change and go onto the next page. It doesn't have to meet it's conclusion, just start a new chapter. Whether this new chapter is the same theme, or shifts from it's course.. Being narrated as we speak. Constantly built, spoken, moved, unmoved, felt, intensity. That's all I got for now.

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User Profile: leeahmfnmae
leeahmfnmae May 20th, 2020

@ShadowTag i be feeling the same " new start" to being a "new end" likebroken heart i felt dat shii

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ShadowTag OP May 20th, 2020

@leeahmfnmae

Thanks I appreciate that we can relate, it's a hard feeling to have.

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ShadowTag OP May 20th, 2020

What am I trying for?

Trying to draw a picture.

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ShadowTag OP May 21st, 2020

They are grown adults they don't need me interrupting their lives. I want to get out and live as a single person. I am an adult and I don't need to be needed by anyone else anymore. I should only be needed by myself. I'm sick of ruining lives by crashing at places I don't belong in. I'm sick of the gossiping. I'm sick of it all.

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ShadowTag OP May 23rd, 2020

The world wants me to be an author I have to write its the thing i have to do no matter what I need to get a book i need do to this i can't let what I say fade into nothingness i can't lose the voice I have been granted.

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ShadowTag OP July 15th, 2021

I don't have the energy to form an opinion about you. If you so want me to, I won't bother. People's just spreading lies about me. So you laugh at the thought of me having schizophrenia like it's something impossible for me to have. What would you know anyway? I hate this game they are playing, making up things I never said. I hope I get out of here soon.