On my mind

It's 5:30 AM and I can't sleep. Tonight it's mostly because my good friend / roommate is leaving in 2 hours for military training and won't be back for 5 months. I'm not close with a lot of people and I feel lonely already knowing that he's not gonna be here for a while.

I'm about 11 weeks pregnant and am so conflicted as to what I should do! I'm starting college in Jan. and really want to focus on that. I can't support a child on my own and I don't even know who the father is. It just wouldn't be fair and I'm not talking about for myself. Aborting it would make me feel both extremely guilty and saddened yet relieved at the same time. I hope there's no judgement because of that. I am really not sure what to do but I need to decide soon.