Nov 4th, 8:01am
It's been over a year since I stopped taking my medication because of paranoid delusions. I started taking it again today and quickly realized that this is much better than the constant psychosis I was dealing with for that time. I almost forgot that there was a reality besides seeing things and hearing things and being paranoid to the point of ruining my relationships.
I may not be on meds forever and may stop taking them for reasons again but until then this is at least a nice bit of relief that I very much needed.
@ROBBER
It sounds like you are on the right path! And it is ok to sometimes deviate from the journey, as long as you eventually get back to it. Well done! Sending you vibes for continued strength, clarity and peace!
Be careful going off meds. Mania and psychosis not good for the brain. Memory issues. Be safe.
How did you convince yourself to get back on meds? I don’t like being drugged by those things and I haven’t taken any for the last few years but recently things have gotten bad enough that I’ve considered taking them again, but it’s so spooky, you know? Going and talking to doctors and getting medicated is pretty much going into the belly of the beast for me, in terms of paranoia. I even made a counseling appointment for next week but I don’t know about going. It really helped you that much?
I'll be honest I stopped taking them again because of paranoia so I can tell you that if they help stop psychosis and the majority of symptoms without major side effects then that's a good enough to reason to take them. But also the side effects and the delusions + paranoia will give you reasons to stop and as someone who's come from recent acute psychosis to now it's better to find your own reasons to start and not someone else's. But also from the side you're on now it's gonna be hard to see how good the not in psychosis side is. So I'd try them, see if you like the other side and if not then stop with good reason. That's it
Thanks bro that was actually really insightful and helpful. Haha that might be the only helpful advice I’ve ever heard about taking meds. Preciate ya