Ni's Little Solace
Not sure why I am creating this thread exactly, and I'm doing this so late at night as well :') I just felt... like I should do this haha. I do have a one line a day thread although I... don't think I have felt so free over there to write as much as I wished. So I thought maybe... I should just make another thread, a diary perhaps.. where I can really be myself.. and maybe post pictures and quotes, literary quotes maybe... and poems.. specifically haiku hehe. Also vents.. thoughts and maybe letters :')
Replies are welcome as well <3 although please remember to stay respectful and kind.
*sending lots of love and hugs because why not*
i want to cry
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*rainbow bear 🌈🧸 sits with Nii 🌙🥧🥺 & huggss Nii 🌙🥧🥺*
but after a while you just turn silent. there are no tears left to cry. all the screams are buried deep inside of you and you are too exhausted to dig them up again and let them out.
there is nothing left to say.
at least nothing left to say that is worth saying.
i’ll just slowly die in this silence one day.
i don’t have anything to say.
i don’t have any screams left.
i don’t have any tears left.
just my brain. and its stupidity.
tw/sh.
there is *** to be done. but today i wasted my time hurting myself and then trying to distract myself and *** i’m actually so *** stupid
i haven’t finished my math homework or any homework today, actually. so that’s… great.
tw/sh.
i keep the object because i know im going to do it again. i sort of just know because when the urges come there’s not much i can do.
it takes…only a little time to realise i lost from the very beginning. and it takes a little time to go back to zero
all progress erased
i’m starting to debate whether i actually care or not.
…about myself.
smile. laugh. pretend.
pretend pretend pretend pretend pretend *** pretend it’s *** exhausting
but oh well…
go on, ni. smile, laugh, pretend.
