TW: SA, Sewer slide mention, abuse, SH, ED, Addictions

I have been r@ped on multiple occasions by many different people and have tried to commit sewer slide at least 14 times mostly by od but have tried on my neck my last attempt being a week ago I have an abusive drunk dad and an unsupportive mom have been trying not to eat because I hate my weight have lost 20 pounds in the last month and am currently struggling with self harm and I did it last night and have been having urges all today yesterday I had a guy throw himself on me but I rejected him and have been so proud of myself since and also currently struggling with a drug addiction.