I work years just to get obsolete
I am obsolete in 7 cups now like I got obsolete in my work.
I studied for 16 years and worked two years, then got obsolete when the single sign of anxiety and sleep disorder appeared. I got unproductive and they thought I was being lazy on purpose, so they were pressing me harder which only made me more unproductive. So I quit and sitting home doing my own thing, can't go back to work cause no therapists in my country to help me.
So about five months ago my eyes started malfunctioning, I can't state at a computer, so I'm now obsolete at 7 cups. I got glasses from a doctor and what not but the eyes still hurt. I don't trust those stupid doctors, in my country and I've been sleeping at days lately so can't see a doctor for about a month. And I'm pissed of at God, I'm tired of losing my powers and having to readjust, relearn doing things over and over again. I am pissed that I can't use a computer anymore, that's my livelihood for God's sake. And I need help from 7 cups so badly but no one would. "ALl the chats have to be done in this website",so I can't send pictures of my handwritten letter to the listener. Just wanted to save my eyes yet get some help, I need help so bad especially at this time. And it doesn't matter I have been continuously using this site for two and a half year, as a listener and a member. I can't use screens so I am obsolete now, no one would try to help me, they would utter rules to an aching soul, "All chats must be in this site", you know the listeners here are so mean. They don't ever think that a soul might be in need of urgent help, most of them only think about themselves.
Anyway, I'm just sad how my past contributions get meaningless when I start becoming disabled. It's as if they only use me as a supply source. And I'm scared how I would survive in this world, I'm just really scared. I can't keep giving up things I enjoy anymore and learn and learn, keep learning, not living, not enjoying. I'm just so sad.
@seashell134
I hope you can read this or get someone to read this to you as I just want to tell you, you are not alone. I know how it feels as I have been on the same journey as you ever since I can remember. I might not be loosing my eyesight, but I have lost a lot in other ways.
Is there any way you can get someone to help you setup text to speech and vice/versa? It's been ages since I worked with it and I know that back then, the basic system on Windows was somewhat lacking in a lot of aspects, but perhaps it's a possibility?
I know the pain you are going through, the constant adjusting, constant searching for something to replace and fill the void, the years you spent dedicated to a industry just to be tossed aside.
I too am seeking a way to break out of that cycle and find some way to sustain myself and keep myself occupied in a productive, sustainable and constant manner but it's hard when everything you get passionate about, keeps getting taken away.
I've never blamed God and perhaps it's just that I grew up with thinking certain things are "normal", like the saying goes about a frog that sits in a pot of water that gently comes to a boil. I know, however, that no matter the challenges we have to face, He has allready opened the way for us. We just need to trust in Him and bear our cross as well as He knows we can. No person is given a challenge greater than what God knows he can bear.
Hard, stays hard though and it weighs you down with every step. I hope and pray you can find a solution to your situation to help you with what you need, to get the support you need, to be able to work, to live ... on your terms and follow a passion without it being stolen away 
@Orthrus
Thank you so much dear Orthrus, your reply calmed my soul. I really want to hear about other people who are like me, it grounds me. I printed your reply and read it. Thank you for such a compassionate, understanding reply. If you permit me, may I send you a handwritten letter to your 7 cups chat using imgr?
