What's your most recent achievement?
My most recent one is talking to a listener on this website, because I tried it a long time ago and got to scared because I'm always afraid that I am bothering everyone around me so this was a hige thing even if it was only for a little while, and my person was really nice so that was also helpful.
Reminding myself that I am doing all I can right now and it is enough.
@bestVase7265 - It 1000% is! Way to go with recognizing that your best is always enough!
Thanks.@Anomalia
Quitting tinder, uninstalling it, and basically getting off the rat race.
But it's more than that, really. It was about letting go of that desire to love and be loved. After all, as much as I want to say that being in tinder is just about having fun, in the back of my head, I'm still hopelessly waiting for "the one" to sweep me off my feet, albeit in the form of a sexual predator as they all come in tinder. That's why it always hurt, after being on a date, and admitting to myself that it was nothing more than a hook up.
And really I can't blame the guys I date, when I specifically told them that I want a hook up. Why did I say that when I'm obviously looking for love? Because noone will take you in tinder if you look like a trap for a serious relationship. So I say I want a hook up, and then do my best to get them to fall for me. Of course, it's always the other way around. I fall, and they had their good time.
So I say that quitting tinder is a real achievement for me. It was more than about stopping myself from being used by guys who probably knew what I really wanted and used it against me, but it was also about finally quitting the addiction and desperate craving for romance. It was about finally giving more value to myself than seeing myself as a failure because I'm loveless.
It was about recognizing that being on my own is not necessarily a bad thing, and there are so many things I could do, and I could do all that even if I don't have a loving partner by my side.
@HopefulLittleGirl3 - I'm really proud of you for starting to recognize your own worth and that you deserve more than letting yourself be used in the hopes of ekeing out a little affection. You deserve to be loved thoroughly, by others, but even more so, by yourself!
@Anomalia Thank you! I hope this inner strength continues! After all, my friends started installing tinder, inspired by my "conquests". They don't understand the costs. I need this strength for them now, to try to tell them what exactly they're signing up for before it's too late. Of course, if they can handle the hook up life though and not be broken about it, I'll fully support them.
I have venturing out more and facing my fears with my agoraphobia at the moment
@Violetsandpeonies You can do it you
Instead of self harming today, when I felt like I wanted to, I cut up fruit instead. I didn't self harm and I made myself a nice snack.
@lightTortoise1929 this has made me smile
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Awesome!
@lightTortoise1929 That made me smile :) you're in the right way to recovery, I'm proud of you
recieving my first job and of course surviving the worst its losing my moms closer one my favorite member in my life her name was denise
that hurts as long as i have bryan bryan is my boyfriend thats what matters and i am glad he listens and doesnt judge and he always feel like a princess and of course we are working on trying to make things an effort finding employment
theres sad stories and i need someone to talk to me soon about this
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@dhabib - I'm so sorry that things have been so tough, but I'm really proud of you for continuing to move forward and survive through all of this. *hugs*
@Anomalia.
thank you for responding yes I went through a lot it hurts its having pain to my ribs in my human body I've lost friends also and I had one ex.bf wasn't meant to beand
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