Dalt0kki - My Hobby Journal!
[TW - some content my be upsetting]
Hey, I'm Dalt0kki and here I will post pictures of my artwork and sculptures - feel free to comment, criticize or praise any of my works, and if anyone is interested in the context behind any of my works feel free to ask!
Dear Soulmate,
It is all true
I've searched
And never gave up on
You
Like a shining star
I'd daydream
Wondering where you
Are
At night I'd sigh
At day I'd cry
Thinking...oh
My
I kept asking life for a sign
I scattered everywhere
In search of my
Sunshine,
No matter what I'd do
I never gave up looking
Or surviving for
You
I wanted to be seen
I prayed
That you wouldn't be
Mean
I'd always be bold
Sometimes
Blaming
The World
And I knew it meant to be
For love
Is everything
To Me.
I'd sit on this hill
Daydreaming
The words:
I Will
I'd walk through hallways
See other people
And their "forever and"
Always
I'd feel like a black dove
As an outsider
Undeserving of
Love
I'd never follow through
Or fully grasp
The idea of never meeting
You
Trigger Warning - Poem contains dark metaphors and imagery
Defective
Unsurprisingly again
I’ve gotten myself into a situation
Full of naivety, temptation
It’s causing me degradation
And I can only blame myself
For this miserable installation
There’s nothing that can be done
To get me out of infatuation
I’ve been through the set up
Through endless confrontation
But sometimes I doubt
The existence of an invitation
I fear for my life, my future
Of the bottomless pit of despair
For this path itself
May very well lead to nowhere
I’m constantly haunted
By the never ending sorrow
Sometimes I hope
To never see another tommorow
And my heart screams in agony
Yet my eyes are blood dry
My internals tear themselves open
But I simply won’t cry
Behind this flesh carcass
Is a dead boy
Behind this blank gaze
Is a broken, used toy
Trigger Warning - Poem contains dark metaphors and imagery
Memento Mori
There used to be a boy
And he was lost at sea
Not a scent of single joy
Making him wonder what he'll be
He wished for someone like him
He longed for closure, acceptance
Before his heart went dim
Then he met somebody, Mori
Someone who didn't ignore him
Nor ever found him boring
His wounds healed
He felt his heart bliss
His terrible pain sealed
Love's welcoming kiss
A feeling he missed
And would miss again
For she was deceiving him
Playing with his fragile heart
Thinking she was smart
Oh how she was wrong
He saw the warnings right through her
He dreamt of her deceitful song
His heart felt her's belonged to another
Yet he believed that his had a chance
Using ignorance as cover
He was blind and chose to dance
He gave her everything - his lover
But in a single day and hour
She gave it all away to her "brother"
Thus, the boy's heart she chose to devour
He wasn't upset, however
He wasn't angry nor did he cry
His heart stopped beating
It did not try
What is dead cannot be killed
So in tears' place
Was a cold despair filled
Empty embrace
I gave my soul to every girl I met
I poured and poured and poured
Until there was nothing left
Now in my empty shell lay pieces
Memories of my troubled past
On my body are scars
Stories that are cast
My heart broken, again
I'm in constant pain
If only it could wait
Since I lost track of time
As I helplessly watch them fade
My serotonin and dopamine
My happiness decayed
Even if I'm surrounded by people
Or my mind is made of stone
I will forever be alone
Tortured and abandoned
Until that part of me is gone
Feel myself becoming colder
My abdominals crashed by a boulder
"If there is a god, please help me"
Trigger Warning - Dark Imagery and Metaphors
Thinking of you
Afraid of the deafening silence
And knowing what is true
Lost myself in pointless violence
While searching for someone new
Spent so many days alone
Feel like sinking into my bed
Tend to leave a conversation
With nothing being said
Once abandoned and deserted
I'm still looking for my place
A little introverted
Everyday I need some space
There's nothing you can say
To make me feel better
Make my stormy weather go away
Finding myself getting upsetter
I'm still looking for my bae
Somebody to hug and kiss
Make my pain cease to exist
My happiness to bliss
Wake up to a sunshine in my bed
Somebody who won't hurt me
Who doesn't want to be dead
And will never ever, desert me
All these fake girls
Really messing with my head
I'm still looking for you instead
Tired of the silent chaos
And knowing what's not true
Lost myself in endless defiance
With no one to pursue
I don't how much more pain
I can really endure
I just wanna lay in bed
Think of you, instead
No matter how many times it's said
Some lyrics I wrote one of my beats, possible Trigger Warning?
Falling
(Intro)
All… these… faces
Empty… places
Judging… every
Part… of… me….e
Why….ammm…I
So… lonee….ly
There’s something…
Wrong with….me
All these… gazes
Cold…. embraces
(Transition into beat)
Hear my heartbeat
It’s increasing
Stop looking at me
It’s making me uneasy
Used to wonder everyday
Whether they like me
A twisted truth
Is all I see
A ruined youth
Is all I be
Plagued by the what if
It’s so damm limiting
I’m stuck here wondering if
They even listening
Heartbreak and sorrow
Really need some distancing
Social anxiety
Is just so crippling
Can’t talk to girls
I just crumble
Can’t start a conversation
That I won’t fumble
Can’t even walk straight
I just stumble
Hear my heartbeat
It’s increasing
what if
They think I’m creepy
Is it just me
is my smile freaky
Not afraid of darkness
But what’s deep inside
Stuck in my mind
It’s where the nightmares hide
Been an eternity
Yet I can’t cry
Feel so numb
In many places
Can’t avoid
Those judgy gazes
And I guess it’s all
Because of anxiety
I got
Mad variety
Seems like
It’s chewing me up inside
Can’t fight it
Hear my heartbeat
It’s increasing
I’m scared
that I might die
Don’t run from it
You can try
Together we’ll be
Fine
An old love poem made to look like a chess piece no TWs for this one, it's wholesome : )
Checkmate
My girlfriend is my sunshine
My girlfriend is my life
And no I'm not bluffing
She really is my wife
I will never leave my girlfriend
See her heart broken
Never abandon or desert her
Leave her thoughts unspoken
Lea, my sweetie
I love you dearly
I'll always be there
Your enemies will fear me
You are my perfect soulmate
Your heart is it's own melody
Know that I wasn't lying
Your love's my only remedy
I love you forever, I need you always
Your love's a drug, I can't get enough of
You are the bug, I won't get rid of