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Dalt0kki December 17th, 2022

[TW - some content my be upsetting]

Hey, I'm Dalt0kki and here I will post pictures of my artwork and sculptures - feel free to comment, criticize or praise any of my works, and if anyone is interested in the context behind any of my works feel free to ask!

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Dalt0kki OP December 17th, 2022

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Dalt0kki OP December 17th, 2022

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Dalt0kki OP December 17th, 2022

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Dalt0kki OP December 18th, 2022

Dear Soulmate,


It is all true

I've searched

And never gave up on


You


Like a shining star

I'd daydream

Wondering where you


Are


At night I'd sigh

At day I'd cry

Thinking...oh


My


I kept asking life for a sign

I scattered everywhere

In search of my


Sunshine,


No matter what I'd do

I never gave up looking

Or surviving for


You


I wanted to be seen

I prayed

That you wouldn't be


Mean


I'd always be bold

Sometimes

Blaming



The World


And I knew it meant to be

For love

Is everything


To Me.


I'd sit on this hill

Daydreaming

The words:


I Will


I'd walk through hallways

See other people

And their "forever and"


Always


I'd feel like a black dove

As an outsider

Undeserving of


Love


I'd never follow through

Or fully grasp

The idea of never meeting


You

Dalt0kki OP December 18th, 2022

Trigger Warning - Poem contains dark metaphors and imagery


Defective


Unsurprisingly again

I’ve gotten myself into a situation

Full of naivety, temptation


It’s causing me degradation


And I can only blame myself

For this miserable installation

There’s nothing that can be done


To get me out of infatuation


I’ve been through the set up

Through endless confrontation

But sometimes I doubt


The existence of an invitation


I fear for my life, my future

Of the bottomless pit of despair

For this path itself


May very well lead to nowhere


I’m constantly haunted

By the never ending sorrow

Sometimes I hope


To never see another tommorow


And my heart screams in agony

Yet my eyes are blood dry

My internals tear themselves open


But I simply won’t cry


Behind this flesh carcass

Is a dead boy

Behind this blank gaze


Is a broken, used toy

Dalt0kki OP December 18th, 2022

Trigger Warning - Poem contains dark metaphors and imagery

Memento Mori


There used to be a boy

And he was lost at sea

Not a scent of single joy


Making him wonder what he'll be


He wished for someone like him

He longed for closure, acceptance

Before his heart went dim


Then he met somebody, Mori


Someone who didn't ignore him

Nor ever found him boring

His wounds healed


He felt his heart bliss


His terrible pain sealed

Love's welcoming kiss

A feeling he missed


And would miss again


For she was deceiving him

Playing with his fragile heart

Thinking she was smart


Oh how she was wrong


He saw the warnings right through her

He dreamt of her deceitful song

His heart felt her's belonged to another


Yet he believed that his had a chance



Using ignorance as cover

He was blind and chose to dance

He gave her everything - his lover


But in a single day and hour


She gave it all away to her "brother"

Thus, the boy's heart she chose to devour

He wasn't upset, however


He wasn't angry nor did he cry


His heart stopped beating

It did not try

What is dead cannot be killed


So in tears' place


Was a cold despair filled

Empty embrace

I gave my soul to every girl I met


I poured and poured and poured


Until there was nothing left

Now in my empty shell lay pieces

Memories of my troubled past


On my body are scars


Stories that are cast

My heart broken, again

I'm in constant pain


If only it could wait


Since I lost track of time

As I helplessly watch them fade


My serotonin and dopamine


My happiness decayed

Even if I'm surrounded by people

Or my mind is made of stone


I will forever be alone


Tortured and abandoned

Until that part of me is gone

Feel myself becoming colder


My abdominals crashed by a boulder

"If there is a god, please help me"



Dalt0kki OP December 18th, 2022

Trigger Warning - Dark Imagery and Metaphors


Thinking of you


Afraid of the deafening silence

And knowing what is true

Lost myself in pointless violence


While searching for someone new


Spent so many days alone

Feel like sinking into my bed

Tend to leave a conversation


With nothing being said


Once abandoned and deserted

I'm still looking for my place

A little introverted


Everyday I need some space


There's nothing you can say

To make me feel better

Make my stormy weather go away


Finding myself getting upsetter


I'm still looking for my bae

Somebody to hug and kiss

Make my pain cease to exist


My happiness to bliss


Wake up to a sunshine in my bed

Somebody who won't hurt me

Who doesn't want to be dead


And will never ever, desert me


All these fake girls

Really messing with my head

I'm still looking for you instead


Tired of the silent chaos


And knowing what's not true

Lost myself in endless defiance

With no one to pursue


I don't how much more pain


I can really endure

I just wanna lay in bed

Think of you, instead


No matter how many times it's said

Dalt0kki OP December 18th, 2022

Some lyrics I wrote one of my beats, possible Trigger Warning?


Falling


(Intro)


All… these… faces

Empty… places


Judging… every

Part… of… me….e


Why….ammm…I

So… lonee….ly


There’s something…

Wrong with….me


All these… gazes

Cold…. embraces


(Transition into beat)


Hear my heartbeat

It’s increasing


Stop looking at me

It’s making me uneasy


Used to wonder everyday

Whether they like me


A twisted truth

Is all I see


A ruined youth

Is all I be


Plagued by the what if

It’s so damm limiting


I’m stuck here wondering if

They even listening


Heartbreak and sorrow

Really need some distancing


Social anxiety

Is just so crippling


Can’t talk to girls

I just crumble


Can’t start a conversation

That I won’t fumble


Can’t even walk straight

I just stumble


Hear my heartbeat

It’s increasing


what if

They think I’m creepy


Is it just me

is my smile freaky


Not afraid of darkness

But what’s deep inside


Stuck in my mind

It’s where the nightmares hide


Been an eternity

Yet I can’t cry


Feel so numb

In many places


Can’t avoid

Those judgy gazes


And I guess it’s all

Because of anxiety


I got

Mad variety


Seems like

It’s chewing me up inside


Can’t fight it



Hear my heartbeat

It’s increasing


I’m scared

that I might die


Don’t run from it

You can try


Together we’ll be


Fine


Dalt0kki OP December 18th, 2022

An old love poem made to look like a chess piece no TWs for this one, it's wholesome : )


Checkmate


My girlfriend is my sunshine

My girlfriend is my life

And no I'm not bluffing


She really is my wife


I will never leave my girlfriend

See her heart broken

Never abandon or desert her


Leave her thoughts unspoken


Lea, my sweetie

I love you dearly

I'll always be there


Your enemies will fear me


You are my perfect soulmate

Your heart is it's own melody

Know that I wasn't lying


Your love's my only remedy


I love you forever, I need you always

Your love's a drug, I can't get enough of

You are the bug, I won't get rid of