I don't have an ED, but I don't know where else to put this
I struggle with general health, specifically weight, diet, and exercise. I won't go into specifics since I know that can be triggering (and is prohibited in this space) but the best way I can describe it is as a staircase that is sinking. I keep making healthy swaps -> decreasing unhealthy food overall, replacing something unhealthy I eat with a slightly healthier alternative, adding more exercise habits into my routine, etc. so I know I'm taking steps up the staircase but the results are still getting worse.
I try to tell myself that it's ok because I'm making small steps forward but sometimes it feels like the rate that I'm climbing is slower than the rate that I'm sinking.
@incompl
Hey hunny - Every little step counts, and I know you know that. Maybe you could write a list of the things that you have changed and then add to it as you take on more. That way you can see how far you have come.
My favourate saying "the best time to plant a tree is 1,000 years ago, the next best time is right now"
@incompl
You don't have to have an eating disorder to post here, every struggle with weight, exercise, feelings, and food is valid even if it doesn't have an official diagnosis or meet a certain criteria. proud of you for reaching out for support and thanks for following the specifics guidelines! How are you feeling today?
@summertimeSamness
I'm feeling a little resigned. The holidays are always terrible for following a particular diet or meal plan and it feels like I pack on weight twice as fast. I'm aware of this so I'm trying to be gentler with myself about reaching my goals but I'm not exactly happy about it.
Thank you for your kind words 
@incompl
Are your goals healthy goals? Or are they goals driven by eating disorder thoughts? They can be a mix of both too. It helps to break it down and think what do you want compared to want the eating thoughts try to make you want. Sometimes it helps to give yourself permission to focus on the social part like being around friends and family. And then remind yourself one day doesn't contribute a significant amount to total weight. Allow yourself to be free and be present, you deserve it <3<3<3