I guess I need to work on myself a lot more than I thought I did

So let me start by saying Hi everyone I know it's been a while since I last posted. Lately I've been feeling like I'm on the right path to healing both physically and mentally but get pulled back by my emotions to my old ways. I am exercising again after a few weeks hiatus, I am increasing my steps too, and trying my hand at yoga and meditation. I really am just conflicted in how my personality is  and how blunt and assertive I can be aside from my usual cheerful and nonchalant demeanor. Any tips or input would be very much appreciated.