Women's Shelter for Emotional and Mental Abuse
Not sure this is the right spot for this, and if not, please direct me to the correct one, thanks.
I just wanted to ask people's opinions on the following:
I've lived with a covert narcissist for 11 years and I just can't take anymore. I know for my own mental health I need to leave this relationship, but there are so many obstacles. And no matter how mad, disgusted, hurt, or what-have-you I get, I still have massive and overwhelming feelings of guilt when I think about leaving him.
I have a tremendous fear of abandonment, so how dare I even entertain the thought of abandoning someone? Because not only will I be abandoning him, I'll be leaving him stranded, also.
I tried moving in with the only friend I have, but that was like jumping out of the frying pan into the fire. And besides, I had no choice but stay in contact with him (her "boyfriend" is my guy's best friend.) I know I have to cut him off entirely, or I'll end up going back to him like I've done time and time again.
So anyway, I was thinking about going to a women's shelter for domestic abuse. There he'd never find me, and they'd probably have a way to help me plan how to move forward and resources to help me keep my resolve. And there But I'm scared! The fear of the unknown, change, losing someone I love (even though I don't know why), being alone at [almost] age 64, no friends, no insurance, no family, nowhere to go, no money to support myself (not that he helps).
What's everybody's thoughts? Should I do the women's shelter thing and abandon and leave my guy stranded? Or try to learn how to live with the consequences of being with someone who totally messes with your head? Any suggestions, either way, or even something new I haven't considered?
Thanks in advance! 🌹
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