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In May, I lost my Papa Tony before that I lost my Meemaw. About a month ago my grandpa passed away in the hospital due to his cancer. Over the last 10 months ive lost a little over 6 family members. It takes me forever to process one and Im processing 6. its sending me into my dark place and it hurts. I didnt even get to say goodbye😣
@GayBirbsSunflower
I am sorry you are having to deal with all this. Loss is never easy, especially when it is friends, family, and Loved Ones. It is never easy.
We all process differently, you are valid for the way you feel right now. It hurts, because we care.
I was not able to say good bye to my mother when she was taken from me. What I did, after screaming into the void my feelings, I wrote a long letter to my mother. Where I expressed my loss and all the other feelings I had.
Here
are some Self-Help
Guides, maybe you can find something to help.
And I recommend talking with an Active Listener, Click here for the list. It helps to have someone to talk to who is free of judgement.

@GayBirbsSunflower
Hi, Sunflower!
I'm really sorry to hear about all the losses you've been facing recently. Losing family members, one after another, in such a short time is incredibly tough. It's like a series of heavy blows that you're trying to handle all at once.
Dealing with the loss of even one loved one can be overwhelming, so going through the loss of six in just 10 months is a lot to process. It's like your heart is getting hit repeatedly, and it's understandable that you're feeling like you're getting pulled into a dark place.
Not being able to say goodbye to them adds another layer of difficulty. Closure is important, and when you don't get that chance to have that final conversation or moment, it can leave a lingering sense of unfinished business and sadness.
Grief has its own pace, and it's different for everyone. It's okay to take your time in processing each loss, and it's also okay to feel like it's taking a long time. Your feelings are human, and it's natural to hurt when you're going through so much all at once.
I encourage you to come here often to share your feelings and keep us updated about how you are doing. There are many other spaces and activities as well in 7 Cups that might help you, like group chat rooms, the Sharing circles, or the Poetry community, where you might express your feelings and honor their memory with a short poem, for example.
I hope things get better in your life soon.
I look forward to seeing you again around here.
All the very best to you!
Marcelo.