Childhood
i think i realized im not that upset necessarily that my grandma’s gone. It’s more of what she represented in my mind, my childhood. She was my connection to the old state i lived in. I will never get those moments back.
@convivialVillage7837 I'm truly sorry for the loss of your grandma. It's completely understandable to feel a deep sense of loss not only for her but also for what she symbolized in your life — the connection to your childhood and a particular time and place.
Grandparents often hold a special place in our hearts, representing memories, comfort, and a link to our past. While you can't bring back the past, you can honour the memories and the connection you had with your grandma by cherishing the moments you shared and the values she instilled in you. Grief is a unique journey for each person, and it's okay to feel a mix of emotions.
If you need to talk more about this or share your feelings, I'm here to listen and provide support during this challenging time. You're not alone in navigating these emotions, and it's essential to give yourself the time and space to process them.
@convivialVillage7837
You are right that sometimes a person represents a time in our life, because they were a central part of it, and losing that person might cause feeling the loss of the entire life stage she represents. Childhood in your case. A stage that you had already lost, but that loss wasn't present in your mind until your grandmother passed away.
Your childhood lives in your memories and in who you are now. You might cultivate those memories by, for example, making a photo album, collecting in one place objects that were part of your childhood, and by talking about events or anecdotes of that time with family members or friends, even reconnecting with childhood friends you haven't seen for a long time.