Self-sustained Certainty
Hello, everyone! My name is Synecdoc and Im here to convince you that you are the most important person in your own life.
To some of you, that might seem obvious. To some of you, that might seem hard to believe. Im not trying to say that I hold the answers to all things, thats definitely not the case. All I am trying to say is that Ive learned and taught things through bits and pieces of my story, and I am here to share it with you. It wont be easy to keep it short, but Im doing my best.
About a year ago, my life took a turn for the worst when I realised I could hear voices through the wind. I thought I was over, for all intents and purposes. I isolated myself in complete silence for days that turned into weeks just so that I couldnt expose myself to any background noise. I avoided telling anyone about me because I thought I might be labelled as ‘insane and always answered with the classic ‘Im okay.
Of course, I was wrong,
Of course, it got worse.
Screams came from every door creak. They were now directed at me. They were fully-fledged sentences. Torment, fear, basically an implosion waiting to happen. Through all this, however, I never listened to any commands and never even tried to respond. I knew I wasnt well and I knew I had to do something. So through weeks of chaotic contemplation, I became certain that this wasnt me. This was my brain trying to play tricks on me, or torture me. I muffled my ears with the ends of two cotton swabs and soundproof headphones and came out of my room with the intent to be better.
During my first counselling session, I was true to myself. I let everything out. I went in there knowing that I will sob to the point where I would be impossible to understand and I ignored the screams telling me to go back. I ended that counselling session saying, ‘I know who I am. I am certain that Ive been wrong and I want to fight this. Even as miserable as I am right now, I want to put everything I have to win in the battle with myself. I was transferred to a psychiatrist and made sure that this will not be easy and it is of utmost seriousness. I was ready.
I wanted to make this post because I have just received an e-mail from a complete stranger that I told my story at some point. Here are the parts of that e-mail that convinced me to reach out to you.
‘I figured, that if someone like you managed to get through that torture and somehow got up after the million bruises theyve received from the punches of their own mind, I could too. Youve taught me to push and be certain that I will succeed. I just wanted you to know that youve saved my way of thinking.
Again, Im not trying to brag and Im not trying to praise myself for the battles Ive fought. But I realised, maybe stories like mine are what encourage others to step up and take initiative in their own lives. That was something I needed, too.
If there is anything you can take from this post, it is that your story might be insightful to others, and make them certain that they are the most important person in their lives. Just like you should be in yours.
If you struggle with anything, be certain that you will get back on your feet and never be afraid to reach out.
If you are worrying that someone is struggling, dont settle for the classic ‘Im okay. Remember to always #AskTwice
I'd like to know more about your experiences!
What would be something from your own story that you think could inspire others?
How many times have you used the phrase "I'm okay" or something similar when you didn't mean it?
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@Synecdoc
Thank you so much for the inspiring post! Really appreciate you opening up about your experiences, and you provide immense insight on reaching out to others and getting unstuck. Thank you for all your hard work, support, and dedication towards 7Cups; we are so glad to have you as part of the community.
What would be something from your own story that you think could inspire others?
Definitely persistence! I have very low self esteem and confidence which has held me back countless times throughout my
life. However, with support and motivation, I still persist, and I was even confident enough to apply for various roles here.
How many times have you used the phrase "I'm okay" or something similar when you didn't mean it?
Countless times! I apply positive affirmations regularly especially in times of stress, often out of instinct.
I've survived a lot and with the support of this site I've learned to be honest with myself.
This is from my blog.
If you see these words in my writings. . . these are what the words mean to me.
Yay! Im happy and/or excited. Im looking forward to something.
Good. Im semi-happy, content. Im usually out of writing mode.
OK/fine. My go-to answer. Im not so bad, but nothing new or exciting.
Meh. I can take it or leave. Nothing new. Semi-bored.
Blah. Im very bored or semi-sad. Please take me out. Please excite iron inspire me.
Eh. Im sad or not feeling good. Please cuddle, chocolate, soup or all three.
ZZZ. Im so depressed Im not getting out of bed, Good away! Im extremely tired.
Thanks.
What would be something from your own story that you think could inspire others?
Well.. I don't know.. I am kinda a closed person who rarely shares personal story.. But last year 2018 was a tough year for me.. When life showed it ugly as well as its beautiful sides. Once.. I was down and feeling like I suffers the most pain.. When I got on a social media site (not gonna name it) and I found peoples having more painful backstory and painful happenings than me.. It was like a moment of relevation for me that how lucky I am to not be in their places and how stupid I am to try to be down and depressed and become the part of this crowd. From that day.. I decided that I will be someone who will inspire others and radiate happiness . And so well here I am.
How many times have you used the phrase "I'm okay" or something similar when you didn't mean it?
Kind of always . Its like my default settings.. Opening up and sharing my life experiences isn't my thing.. I just open up to God.. And so it has been a common phrase to me.